this is my final strategy on how to cope with and move on from the past I cannot be in love with someone who does not love me back If he was my hero then he would come rescue me from my life and take me to be with him I have to just think of this past year and a half starting with my moving to los angeles as a manic episode filled with hallucinations and delusions and paranoia
he might give good advice, but that does not make him my God or my special person I will find a special person who loves me the way I deserve to be loved in the future after I get my mental illness ordered and healed through someone who accepts me and values me for who I am someone who does not need me to be thin and filled with plastic surgery before even talking to me Michael Majlak is not my hero or my God and I do not love him or have any sort of idealizing feelings towards him anymore
