that is a scary position to be in, to be brave enough to face that you are struggling with stuff that most people will not necessarily understand or empathize with and to put yourself in the position that you are aware that you are not really fitting in with society rn and that you might be singled out as a "threat" for being different and possible even persecuted like there is definitely a part of myself that is very concerned about this but I think that I am going to bravely press forward and know that at least I know and trust that I am trying to rejoin society in a healthy way, even if I do not see how this is going to play out or is possible yet
maybe being able to accept myself without the delusions is something that I couldn't do
It wasn't, as you connected those themes with the things you were running from, taking the mood it put you in to be as if the news itself were causing it.
but IFS started the process of me trying to be brave enough to be able to accept myself without the delusions as just a normal human who is struggling with mental illness and depression
What about yourself are you looking at right now?
that is a scary position to be in, to be brave enough to face that you are struggling with stuff that most people will not necessarily understand or empathize with
Over 10% of the world is classifiably disordered, and many go throughout their lives undiagnosed.
What really throws people for a loop is over the sheer level of variation between people, even among the neurotypical.
and to put yourself in the position that you are aware that you are not really fitting in with society rn
Most people with disorders recognize this much earlier, did you not notice that you were different from other people in ways that singled you out before?
and that you might be singled out as a "threat" for being different and possible even persecuted like there is definitely a part of myself that is very concerned about this
No one's going to persecute you if they don't otherwise recognize that you are disordered, and even then people tend to respond more with fear, confusion, and pitying levels of sympathy.
but I think that I am going to bravely press forward and know that at least I know and trust that I am trying to rejoin society in a healthy way, even if I do not see how this is going to play out or is possible yet
Why 'society' though, because you feel lonely?
I usually find epiphany times like this to be a good time to dive into Existential media, movies like I ♥ Huckabees and Alan Watts youtube videos. It's becoming increasingly cliché during these modern times for a reason.
