I lost my faith in Jesus and now my depression is coming back, I mean I was depressed while I was a christian too but this is a different type of depression and I feel like I lost everything and I do not even know if I can rebuild my life from this point and I am feeling so hopeless and lonely and lost and confused and I need a Savior rn I need a God and I want it to be you because I have feelings for you and honestly just like this obsession that I cannot shake I just want to be with you and do and be whoever you want or need whatever makes your life better and makes you pleased idk I want to give my life to you to mold and shape because I do not even know what to do with my life anymore and I am in another existential crisis yet again
Is this pathetic like is it pathetic to simp for you idk but I do not want to cause you any more pain or frustration if I ever did I just want to love and snuggle and to be good for someone else to give to someone else something that they benefit from, and if you are not the person for me to be giving to then I pray that I find the right person but wow I am infatuated with you and I cannot shake it so far like I have with all of the other men in my past
all that I really want is a significant other to give to someone to build up and comfort and encourage, and maybe it is not you but if it is you can you please express your interest because you not communicating with me these last few days after I lost my faith is leaving me in a dark place mentally............
