I have been off of the adderall for like almost a year, but those few months before I came off of adderall (after having been on it for a couple of years) are when the Lilith divine Mother concept of myself and visions and hallucinations that I thought were coming from the Judaic God started happening
and yes I agree, I need to learn how to take care of people and make them feel better and Idk how yet so I am going to continue with IFS therapy but probably with a secular therapist
So, no more adderall? I hope you maintain this; this seems like a better side to you.
This shit's been going on since pre-October of 2021, that'd be a pretty long 'manic episode' (10+ months).
Based on her behaviors right now I don't think it's over either. This is her, like usual, trying to tell herself and us that "It's over now and everything's better, I can feel myself improving guys!".
It's self-diagnosed, this is the woman who tries to get people to seek psychiatric help while simultaneously demonizing her own therapist. Less than a week ago she tried to tell me she has MPD, so clearly this is her trying to find her own answers instead of trusting a professional.
Look, normally when there's a manic episode it's followed by a depressive one of similar length.
Based on your behaviors across the forum anyway I wouldn't say you really have down phases, but rather you go back and forth between varying levels of lucidity during some powerful egomania.
is the rampant antisemitsm directed at me by you also over?
She seems ashamed of it now anyway, but that could change at any time. The following was from today:
I do not want to be racist but I am feeling like very upset they have serious mental issues
You're kinda being racist though, like not all Jews made that religion just a few of them did.
It'd be like Japan blaming every American for Hiroshima.
they invented both the Judaic God and Christianity............ both are horrible religions with threats of violence for not believing the same as them
How many Jews did that out of how many Jews have existed in history?
Look, normally when there's a manic episode it's followed by a depressive one of similar length.
Based on your behaviors across the forum anyway I wouldn't say you really have down phases, but rather you go back and forth between varying levels of lucidity during some powerful egomania.
yeah, well I cannot even handle going into a depressive episode because it is too harrowing
I am not saying it was for sure a manic episode, but it seems to have qualities of it
Look, normally when there's a manic episode it's followed by a depressive one of similar length.
Based on your behaviors across the forum anyway I wouldn't say you really have down phases, but rather you go back and forth between varying levels of lucidity during some powerful egomania.yeah, well I cannot even handle going into a depressive episode because it is too harrowing
Depressive episodes aren't a choice, and they if anything tend to be more of a lethargic expression where nothing feels like anything.
You by contrast are up pretty much all the time, but get worse when triggered or nearing some kind of episodic break. I swear your narratives make it sound like some kind of seizure sometimes.
I am not saying it was for sure a manic episode, but it seems to have qualities of it
It reads to me more like psychosis reactions to your egomania being challenged leading to hardened concepts to streamline rebuking those who'd interrupt your imagined worldview. As it went further down the deep end you didn't even deny it came from playing pretend sometimes.
This is what happens to people who refuse to accept that they could be wrong over something, they tune out all outside advice and evidence. The very desperation to avoid conclusions you don't like end up making your own situation worse than if you'd just accepted it in the first place.
