and make me grateful for all that I have because I am blessed with so much and I am realizing this now I, yeah that was probably the worst situation that I had ever been in in my life
🤢🤮 It was soooo horrible you have no idea the food was good though that was the only plus lol but now I literally have no appetite anymore being in that situation I think permanently destroyed my appetite idk it is weird I just do not find food soothing anymore like I used to I think that I finally realized that food cannot save me maybe this was Jesus's way of undoing the trauma that caused me to turn to food when I was younger like a subconscious thing or something too who knows