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I feel so calm now  wow maybe the baptism really did make it so that I was delivered enough that I could read the holy scriptures peacefully instead of keeping avoiding reading them like I was  I did not want to tell anyone that I had a problem but,  I had a problem............  I kept avoiding reading them and I felt like a horrible Christian and I was scared to tell anyone,  but I actually did end up confessing it to one older lady from that tongues church,  and my biological mother,  and even confessed it on this forum