I can feel the darkness losing its hold and that it is silly to be scared of reading a book  I mean It is a book,  what is there to be scared of  what is the worst that can happen  If is not like a horror book or anything or a book about invoking demons  I am already almost homeless and I have like barely any friends and no one trusts me and I do not trust anyone and my mother is going into debt over me like what is the worst that can happen you know,   what more could I really lose just from reading a book ?