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that and it seems like all of my repressed childhood trauma is trying to prepare me that it all wants to make itself known and understood to my adult self

I thought anxiety made you desire binging, hence your time spent fetishizing fasting. 

JesusistheKing said: 

Idk if this is a good thing or a bad thing lol because my anxiety used to increase my appetite  I have not changed anything with my meds  I think the most recent experience with the roommate who was trying to intimidate me into letting her prostitute me out scarred me for life............

 

 

^  It did,  and I already gave my theories as to what triggered this new reaction to it

Ig that I am happy about it tbh,  why bother pretending like I am concerned for myself lmao  I gained so much weight over the last year anyway that I could probably survive off of my fat alone for a year or something but Idk the science of that

Mostly wondering if this is further wish fulfilment, you've more than once tried to cook up ideas about not eating. 

Then the following week you tell us about poop. 

It is not anything that like I consciously manifested though,  or maybe I did but it did not come to fruition until I accepted that I got fat again and that nothing was going to change that any time soon lol

Well... are you drinking water still? 

yes  I love drinking water especially cold ice water but even just refrigerated water

Okay good, as it's been hotter lately and I wasn't sure to what degree you were inappetitic. 

I'm sure you already know my rant about how 'feast or famine' practices contribute to weight gain more than consistent eating, and how snacking helps with digestion rather than full blown binges with long gaps of abstaining literally clogging your toilet(s), but you do you.