I need to study psychology and the Word of God to find out how to actually be able to act out and embody the purity and unconditional love of Jesus
I am just as full of sinful thoughts and behaviors as most forum members here and that is not okay and I am not purposefully "clinging to my sins", it is just that I genuinely do not know how to be this pure loving person that Jesus wants from me there has to be a process, and while it maybe varies from individual to individual, for me the repentence process is not going very well and I need to go on a personal individual between God and I journey of investigating why
It is not because I am not willing to give up any and all sins to be pleasing to Jesus, I am and I made that decision when I chose to give my life over to God instead of having to face potential condemnation to eternal hell so I did genuinely give my life to Jesus
I supposed I have a fear of being bored, of being ridiculed by people, of regretting my decision to become "holy" in this world where most of the people are telling you that it is more enjoyable and pleasurable to be engaging in sin, but I am willing to pursue my faith despite these fears, and these fears are having less of a hold on me as I am growing closer to God
I suppose that my faith is not the "strongest and unquestioning and unwavering" that it should be I suppose that I still have trust issues when it comes to believing God on everything that he promises in the New Testament scriptures
but ultimately, I have to find out the easiest and most efficient and thorough and practical ways to stop sinning, to be compliant with and obedient to Jesus in the remission of all of my sins sanctification process
and I do not want to be speaking about Jesus on this forum while I remain a hypocrite in my thoughts and desires and actions, because that is unfair to you all and it also leaves a lot of strongholds for Satan within me that he has been using to his advantage to continue leading people astray through me since I do not know how to be a good positive example of Jesus (yet)
I shall probably return when I feel like I have had some epiphanies and success on what it takes to successfully become remissioned from your sinful ways of the past, and until then I am praying for you all and for all of humanity love and peace and forgiveness and happiness and joyfulness, Thank you for answering these prayers Jesus, Amen 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊✝️