of his decisions I have to confess that I am struggling there is a part of me that wants to protect and nurture someone that I had strong feelings for but there is another part of me that wants the absolute worst to happen to this person
and I think that it would be healthiest and wisest and happiest for me to be in the middle on this issue of his potential downfall (possibly because of his not sacraficing me for his own come up due to my seeing the future and not allowing it to happen), neither sacrificing my own wellbeing for his or wishing him ill and misfortune, but instead being detached and peacefully letting whatever happens to him and his future fate play out and happen, not really being concerned one way or another and leaving it in God's hands completely
but I confess that I am pretty severely struggling with codependency in this situation presently, and regardless of whether you think that I am delusional or not, I think that we can all agree that I am struggling with codependency issues presently, so maybe staying focused on positive advice to help nurture myself out of codependent thinking patterns into healthy normal interdependent thinking patterns that are empowering and put myself back into being the only person that I am genuinely responsible for trying to control is the best way to be supportive because I am not genuinely in control of the decisions of anyone else and what the consequences of his or her decisions are
yeah I am struggling with this, and I will definitely be talking to my trauma therapist about some of this codependency stuff during my upcoming session
