and not out of obligation which is why I chose Christians that I did not even really like or have much in common with as far as values (I chose ones that were very "worldy", valued material possessions and "status", and were extremely hypocritical, similar to the type of people that I grew up with and went to cool with), because I just wanted what was familiar to me surrounding me while I continued working on my inner healing) the first time that I joined a church after becoming saved in 2021
but once I took the leap of faith and moved myself into an impoverished area it has been bringing out a lot of genuine Jesus like attributes in me which is something that he promised me and it came true, and I am beginning to genuinely want to be around genuine humble and giving and loving Christians and serving in the community and helping people
as I become more genuine myself I am desiring to be around people who are also genuine. The one way that I have not been like Jesus recently is that I am feeling disgust and resentment towards people who do not take Christianity seriously, such as pretty much everyone on this forum. I should be loving and forgiving and compassionate and just leave this former part of my life (sc) as well as spending time around hypocritical worldly Christians who barely 🙄 live out their faith all behind, which is my goal right now, but I was not living out that goal up until presently
