Jesus does not want me to, it is disrespecting my body and thinking disrespectful thoughts about other people, it makes me feel disempowered and I say stupid things to and in front of other people because of it, If I don't I am going to feel stuck and trapped in these unsatisfying unfulfilling lust urges forever probably

 

the reason why I say that Jesus does not want me to is because, regardless of whether this is your personal experience or not   the act of masturbating for me is always either caused by or leads to me thinking sexual lustful thoughts about other people (bad sinning  👎💩) especially about this one man in particular who shalt not be named  :p