but the toys reminded me of penis inside of me too much to continue using them (the feeling of "fullness" or something being in there, not quite as big as an actual penis :p)
So you want it to be so unlike a penis that you won't think about dick?
yeah which is probably impossible for a s** toy except for the clitoral only ones, but I feel like if it is a clitoral only one it feels disrespectful to imagine that being Jesus for some reason