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please help me,  I wish that you were a Christian so that you would pray for me

If I were a Christian, I'd think praying for you would be enough. Closest I can do is express concern and try to hone in on whatever symptoms you make public. 

Okay though, we need to figure what is motivating you to act against your declarations in the first place. Some part of you wants to do these things, but another part of you finds great shame in your desires. You aim to police yourself by effectively yelling at yourself, but then you end up doing those things anyway. 

I'd start by asking why you feel ashamed of the things you find yourself naturally doing, rather than accepting that as part of who you are. What makes you desire to self-correct in spite of consistently not listening to it? This trait was present pre-Christianity, it's core to who you are. 

Following that, I'd be asking what headspace you're in when you act against your own big picture desires. Are you usually drunk, or on some drug? Are you going through manic bursts when you act against yourself? Is there any sensation you're feeling during those times that is otherwise consistent then, but not during the times you yell at yourself to stop doing it? 

stuff pizza in your face as i masturbate my huge godddess

Turncoat said: 

If I were a Christian, I'd think praying for you would be enough. Closest I can do is express concern and try to hone in on whatever symptoms you make public. 

Okay though, we need to figure what is motivating you to act against your declarations in the first place. Some part of you wants to do these things, but another part of you finds great shame in your desires. You aim to police yourself by effectively yelling at yourself, but then you end up doing those things anyway. 

I'd start by asking why you feel ashamed of the things you find yourself naturally doing, rather than accepting that as part of who you are. What makes you desire to self-correct in spite of consistently not listening to it? This trait was present pre-Christianity, it's core to who you are. 

Following that, I'd be asking what headspace you're in when you act against your own big picture desires. Are you usually drunk, or on some drug? Are you going through manic bursts when you act against yourself? Is there any sensation you're feeling during those times that is otherwise consistent then, but not during the times you yell at yourself to stop doing it? 

I do not want to be a slave to sexual attention, I know this much for sure but as you have said it is a part of me, but Christianity promises freedom from sinning and I want that especially in this area, I am ready to give this up but the problem is that I do not have anything to replace it with

this is the root of the problem,  there is nothing that when this sense of emptiness and depression overtakes me and will not leave that makes me feel numb and happy the same way that s**ual attention does

AlmightyJim said: 

stuff pizza in your face as i masturbate my huge godddess

k lol  :p

JesusistheKing said: 

Turncoat said: 

If I were a Christian, I'd think praying for you would be enough. Closest I can do is express concern and try to hone in on whatever symptoms you make public. 

Okay though, we need to figure what is motivating you to act against your declarations in the first place. Some part of you wants to do these things, but another part of you finds great shame in your desires. You aim to police yourself by effectively yelling at yourself, but then you end up doing those things anyway. 

I'd start by asking why you feel ashamed of the things you find yourself naturally doing, rather than accepting that as part of who you are. What makes you desire to self-correct in spite of consistently not listening to it? This trait was present pre-Christianity, it's core to who you are. 

Following that, I'd be asking what headspace you're in when you act against your own big picture desires. Are you usually drunk, or on some drug? Are you going through manic bursts when you act against yourself? Is there any sensation you're feeling during those times that is otherwise consistent then, but not during the times you yell at yourself to stop doing it? 

I do not want to be a slave to sexual attention, I know this much for sure but as you have said it is a part of me, but Christianity promises freedom from sinning and I want that especially in this area, I am ready to give this up but the problem is that I do not have anything to replace it with

What are the root components of that desire? Do you see appearance as an end to get the attention you crave, or do you see attention as confirmation for your appearance? 

this is the root of the problem,  there is nothing that when this sense of emptiness and depression overtakes me and will not leave that makes me feel numb and happy the same way that s**ual attention does

Why sexual in particular though? Is it about Safety? Power? Control? 

Turncoat said: 

JesusistheKing said: 

Turncoat said: 

If I were a Christian, I'd think praying for you would be enough. Closest I can do is express concern and try to hone in on whatever symptoms you make public. 

Okay though, we need to figure what is motivating you to act against your declarations in the first place. Some part of you wants to do these things, but another part of you finds great shame in your desires. You aim to police yourself by effectively yelling at yourself, but then you end up doing those things anyway. 

I'd start by asking why you feel ashamed of the things you find yourself naturally doing, rather than accepting that as part of who you are. What makes you desire to self-correct in spite of consistently not listening to it? This trait was present pre-Christianity, it's core to who you are. 

Following that, I'd be asking what headspace you're in when you act against your own big picture desires. Are you usually drunk, or on some drug? Are you going through manic bursts when you act against yourself? Is there any sensation you're feeling during those times that is otherwise consistent then, but not during the times you yell at yourself to stop doing it? 

I do not want to be a slave to sexual attention, I know this much for sure but as you have said it is a part of me, but Christianity promises freedom from sinning and I want that especially in this area, I am ready to give this up but the problem is that I do not have anything to replace it with

What are the root components of that desire? Do you see appearance as an end to get the attention you crave, or do you see attention as confirmation for your appearance? 

this is the root of the problem,  there is nothing that when this sense of emptiness and depression overtakes me and will not leave that makes me feel numb and happy the same way that s**ual attention does

Why sexual in particular though? Is it about Safety? Power? Control? 

but what if we talk about this during an in person s** toy playtime session  :p

JesusistheKing said: 

Turncoat said: 

JesusistheKing said: 

Turncoat said: 

If I were a Christian, I'd think praying for you would be enough. Closest I can do is express concern and try to hone in on whatever symptoms you make public. 

Okay though, we need to figure what is motivating you to act against your declarations in the first place. Some part of you wants to do these things, but another part of you finds great shame in your desires. You aim to police yourself by effectively yelling at yourself, but then you end up doing those things anyway. 

I'd start by asking why you feel ashamed of the things you find yourself naturally doing, rather than accepting that as part of who you are. What makes you desire to self-correct in spite of consistently not listening to it? This trait was present pre-Christianity, it's core to who you are. 

Following that, I'd be asking what headspace you're in when you act against your own big picture desires. Are you usually drunk, or on some drug? Are you going through manic bursts when you act against yourself? Is there any sensation you're feeling during those times that is otherwise consistent then, but not during the times you yell at yourself to stop doing it? 

I do not want to be a slave to sexual attention, I know this much for sure but as you have said it is a part of me, but Christianity promises freedom from sinning and I want that especially in this area, I am ready to give this up but the problem is that I do not have anything to replace it with

What are the root components of that desire? Do you see appearance as an end to get the attention you crave, or do you see attention as confirmation for your appearance? 

this is the root of the problem,  there is nothing that when this sense of emptiness and depression overtakes me and will not leave that makes me feel numb and happy the same way that s**ual attention does

Why sexual in particular though? Is it about Safety? Power? Control? 

but what if we talk about this during an in person s** toy playtime session  :p

😳

So... control then? 

Turncoat said: 

JesusistheKing said: 

Turncoat said: 

JesusistheKing said: 

Turncoat said: 

If I were a Christian, I'd think praying for you would be enough. Closest I can do is express concern and try to hone in on whatever symptoms you make public. 

Okay though, we need to figure what is motivating you to act against your declarations in the first place. Some part of you wants to do these things, but another part of you finds great shame in your desires. You aim to police yourself by effectively yelling at yourself, but then you end up doing those things anyway. 

I'd start by asking why you feel ashamed of the things you find yourself naturally doing, rather than accepting that as part of who you are. What makes you desire to self-correct in spite of consistently not listening to it? This trait was present pre-Christianity, it's core to who you are. 

Following that, I'd be asking what headspace you're in when you act against your own big picture desires. Are you usually drunk, or on some drug? Are you going through manic bursts when you act against yourself? Is there any sensation you're feeling during those times that is otherwise consistent then, but not during the times you yell at yourself to stop doing it? 

I do not want to be a slave to sexual attention, I know this much for sure but as you have said it is a part of me, but Christianity promises freedom from sinning and I want that especially in this area, I am ready to give this up but the problem is that I do not have anything to replace it with

What are the root components of that desire? Do you see appearance as an end to get the attention you crave, or do you see attention as confirmation for your appearance? 

this is the root of the problem,  there is nothing that when this sense of emptiness and depression overtakes me and will not leave that makes me feel numb and happy the same way that s**ual attention does

Why sexual in particular though? Is it about Safety? Power? Control? 

but what if we talk about this during an in person s** toy playtime session  :p

😳

So... control then? 

lol probably

I am going to have an airbnb for the first half of May if you would like to come visit but I do have a couple planning to perform deliverance on me on Mother's day weekend