Are you saying, OP is untrue ?
OP quoted a scripture, but from what OP has told me about his beliefs regarding Christianity, he seems to not understand the concept of complete eternal forgiveness and unconditional love upon accepting Jesus as Savior
which is, unfortunate to say the least
I would like for OP to be able to experience the joy of salvation, but that would require understanding of what Jesus did on the cross and what happens upon accepting Jesus as Svaior (you immediately become in God's eyes free from any possible condemnation and a new creation)
Romans 8:34-39
34 Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.
35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.