My body count won’t and hasn’t risen. The last time it rose was when I started dating guys from here, but now I’m just recycling. I’m just going over the same guys, so no body count increase here. Chapo will get better at sex and we will get better together.
Probably a good idea to find out why exactly Chapo gave Marilla a shoryuken, cause if you start to leave a bitter taste in his mouth AFTER, he moves and leaves everything and everyone behind for you, he might thrash you.
You like sex, and you think Chapo will get better at sex... That is good thinking actually, for a long term relationship and it shall be done I'm sure.
He just wants sex. I can give him that and I’m willing to. He might hit me but I’ll leave him if he does. I don’t allow that stuff to happen to me anymore. I will leave right away. I’ll be homeless if I have to.
Do you have any diagnosis by any chance ? OCD perhaps ?
These things you sometimes say, feels serious. Like you kinda act out your thoughts. You're still excited to have him come down yeah ?
No OCD, just depressing, anxiety and PTSD. I always act out my thoughts because that’s just exactly what I know and how I handle things. Honestly, I’m worried we won’t work out and he will hate me like everyone else it didn’t work out with does. He’s cool, so I don’t want him to hate me. I’d like to be friends, but I get that if he changed his entire life and then I don’t like him anymore, he will be angry and rightfully so, but we don’t even talk. We barely see each other and he’s always mean when I talk about us not working out like that’s not a possibility to him, but it is for me because I need someone I can talk to. If he doesn’t vaccine that guy, we have no hope. Plus, we have to work on our sex too.
Friends ? Our partners aren't our friends don't ever settle for that.
I don't know exactly what you and Chapo see in one another. Aside from the lust, maybe you both expect tolerance and understanding from one another.
Don't be so quick to go for the jugular and run away whenever you get into a fight or disagreement and your worries will remain just worries. That's not to say there isn't a time to ever walk away. Just stick around for the battle, fighting is normal, even healthy at times, while shitty head games or just weakness or cowardice end good relations.
Do understand what you're dealing with. Chapo once proposed to Med, and now look at them. She's but an option he discards that keeps finding her way beneath his foot.
