I'm in a state where I want to tell everyone about the changes taking place in my life during this timeframe. But it'll come across more as boasting and posturing. It'll also be taken as bullshit where people will want proof of such claims. Even I can hardly believe this is happening, it's nearly haunting.
I'm going to lose friends, and make new ones. I don't particularly want this part of it.
Another thing. People don't want to hear the good news. They are more upbeat when there's bad news. Take SavantSaville for example. He posts an image where he's ripped and beautiful, no one replies. Then he posts an image claiming to have lost muscle mass and has become scrawny, and that thread is a hotter topic than his others.
As for me, I don't want to be a show off. It's why I'm never quick to entertain others. Yet, I want to see the look on my old bosses faces. They would light up and be very warm toward me. Now, if I do show off, it'll attract a lot of bad people in my life, sticking around for what I may have. There's also trust issues that come about. I could be in danger and might need to be gated. My closest friends in the future might end up being business associates who'll need me, but I won't need them at all.
I should keep this a secret. Dreams can easily become nightmares.
for the whole of april beginning tomorrow i will:
-do alternate date fasting
-take carb blocker supplement (string bean extract)
-take bcaa
-take vitamin d supplement
-run minimum 10km per week
i will report back how i feel and how it goes. I plan to lose about 7kg to get in shape.
UPDATE:
Still doing the fatsing continuously. I must have lost a lot of weight although i have not weighed in yet. still 4 fasting days to go until end of fasting. today is a fast day as well. all the supplements give me a nice feeling about caring for myself. 10km/week has not gone well. Maybe so far if we take the mean it has been 5km/week with at least 8 days no run now. I have been very busy with work and I am not a morning workout person. also on fasting days running is very difficult which makes it harder. maybe this last week I can improve on it.
i put on 10kg within 1 year. but it does not show because i am tall. still a bad feeling
just do Ramadan
