List of flaws:
Ocd as hell
Anger at god
Lack of social skills
Impulsively hacks friends and family social media accounts
Curiosity killed the cat especially way to much fucking pointless curiosity
PTSD out the ass
Cynicism
Overthinking
Irrational attachments to other people. All love is irrational.
Lack of cognitive empathy
Frequent existential crisis
Phases of analysis paralysis
Thinks self into depression
Difficult to surprise
To crytical
Antisocial
Morally questionable science experiments
Completely apathetic with physical connections in relationships
Doing horrible things behind the scenes because "science"
Can't stop eating dirt and chalk
Night terrors
I hate hugs
Hatred for eye contact despite tolerance
Internal faggot tendencies
Everything I do is stupid because I always know what I could have done better
Does feeling like most around me are less intelligent make me an ass? Am I imagining it?
Extreme sexism due to hatred for women
To sensitive to physical touch to be able to brush hair
Fear of the dark
Constantly thinking and so lost in head that I can't pay attention to what's around me.
To jaded with life for someone my age.
I think to much about if I think my nose is to big or not like my mother's
"Invasive" thoughts about animals other than people
Frequent and habitual abstract deconstruction of physical reality and philosophy causes bodily disassociation
Inability to emotionally connect with other people
To many secrets
To dominant in relationships
Complete lack of emotional self awareness
Getting so caught up in my studies and my goals and experiments that I forget about the people around me
To impulsive
To honest
Can appear cold and distant
Kind of a dick
There is so much that I don't know
I make people uncomfortable
To sarcastic
To hung up on proving femininity to self and others
To nihilistic
Sarcastic and cynical internal monologue due to perfectionism
Mental illness and mental/emotional instability
Difficulty enjoying things because of overthinking them
To crytical of everything including self
Apathy
Trust issues
Difficulty talking about problems IRL
Overthinks jokes so that although I am good at making them I am bad at laughing at them
Hides depression with a goofy comedic guise
List of strengths:
Honest
Funny
Good at singing
Fast learner
Not a thief
Not a sheep
Knowledgeable on a lot of topics
Avid and fast reader
Poetic
Philosophical
Determined
Driven
True to convictions
Loyal
Good with money
Usually logical, unless overcome by strong and unidentifiable emotion
Tan easily
Good at predicting things
Deep relationship with god
Able to understand abstract concepts
Good at pretending to give a shit when it really counts
High vocabulary
Good at problem solving
Creative
Good at seeing through propaganda
Good at debate
Challenges people
Good at theorizing
Outside the box thinking
Good with S.T.E.M except for the M unless given time to abstract M into a physical concept
Finally outgrew God complex and stopped deforming plants and animals through crude forms of genetic alteration and stopped bringing dead animals back to life, finally stopped sewing live animals together.
Why am I trying this is stupid. This isn't actually going to get me anywhere, what is even the point of self improvement when life is short and in the grand scheme of things I am less than a temporary and fleeting raindrop in a storm?