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My flaws and strengths, a self analysis


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List of flaws: 

 

Ocd as hell

 

Anger at god

 

Lack of social skills 

 

Impulsively hacks friends and family social media accounts

 

Curiosity killed the cat especially way to much fucking pointless curiosity

 

PTSD out the ass

 

Cynicism 

 

Overthinking 

 

 

Irrational attachments to other people. All love is irrational. 

 

Lack of cognitive empathy

 

Frequent existential crisis

 

 Phases of analysis paralysis

 

Thinks self into depression

 

Difficult to surprise

 

To crytical 

 

Antisocial

 

Morally questionable science experiments 

 

Completely apathetic with physical connections in relationships 

 

Doing horrible things behind the scenes because "science" 

 

Can't stop eating dirt and chalk 

 

Night terrors

 

I hate hugs 

 

Hatred for eye contact despite tolerance 

 

Internal faggot tendencies 

 

Everything I do is stupid because I always know what I could have done better 

 

Does feeling like most around me are less intelligent make me an ass? Am I imagining it? 

 

Extreme sexism due to hatred for women 

 

To sensitive to physical touch to be able to brush hair 

 

Fear of the dark 

 

Constantly thinking and so lost in head that I can't pay attention to what's around me. 

 

To jaded with life for someone my age.

 

I think to much about if I think my nose is to big or not like my mother's

 

"Invasive" thoughts about animals other than people

 

Frequent and habitual abstract deconstruction of physical reality and philosophy causes bodily disassociation 

 

Inability to emotionally connect with other people 

 

To many secrets

 

To dominant in relationships

 

Complete lack of emotional self awareness

 

Getting so caught up in my studies and my goals and experiments that I forget about the people around me

 

To impulsive

 

To honest

 

 Can appear cold and distant

 

Kind of a dick

 

 There is so much that I don't know

I make people uncomfortable

 

To sarcastic

 To hung up on proving femininity to self and others

 

To nihilistic

Sarcastic and cynical internal monologue due to perfectionism

 

Mental illness and mental/emotional instability

 

Difficulty enjoying things because of overthinking them

 

To crytical of everything including self

 

Apathy

 

Trust issues

 

Difficulty talking about problems IRL

Overthinks jokes so that although I am good at making them I am bad at laughing at them

 

Hides depression with a goofy comedic guise

 

List of strengths:

 

 

Honest

 

Funny

 

Good at singing

 

Fast learner

 Not a thief

 

Not a sheep

 

Knowledgeable on a lot of topics

 

Avid and fast reader 

 

Poetic

 

Philosophical

 

Determined 

 

Driven

 

True to convictions

 

Loyal 

 

Good with money 

 

Usually logical, unless overcome by strong and unidentifiable emotion

 

Tan easily 

 

Good at predicting things

 

Deep relationship with god

 

 

 

Able to understand abstract concepts 

 

Good at pretending to give a shit when it really counts 

High vocabulary

 

Good at problem solving

 

Creative

Good at seeing through propaganda

 

 Good at debate

 

Challenges people

 Good at theorizing

Outside the box thinking

 

Good with S.T.E.M except for the M unless given time to abstract M into a physical concept

 

 

Finally outgrew God complex and stopped deforming plants and animals through crude forms of genetic alteration and stopped bringing dead animals back to life, finally stopped sewing live animals together. 

 

Why am I trying this is stupid. This isn't actually going to get me anywhere, what is even the point of self improvement when life is short and in the grand scheme of things I am less than a temporary and fleeting raindrop in a storm? 

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last edit on 3/30/2022 10:42:01 AM
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0 votes RE: My flaws and strengths, a self analysis
Why am I trying this is stupid. This isn't actually going to get me anywhere,
Well think of the alternative, and see if that's better. For me, it isn't.
 
what is even the point of self improvement
Killing boredom, and whatever else you ascribe to it. That's my take, at least.
 
Also, you get to join the elite social club of the enlightened. Nobody else around you is a member, so you get to enjoy loneliness. It's nice to be alone with your thoughts, with nobody to share them with.
 
when life is short and in the grand scheme of things I am less than a temporary and fleeting raindrop in a storm?
Scales, scales my friend. Nothing matters to the Cosmos, except the astral realm and the Great Quantum Mind. You play an important role in all of this.
last edit on 3/30/2022 11:07:25 AM
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0 votes RE: My flaws and strengths, a self analysis
Why am I trying this is stupid. This isn't actually going to get me anywhere,
Well think of the alternative, and see if that's better. For me, it isn't.
Kind of terrible advice, of course someone in a shit headspace will think they'd prefer death. 

what is even the point of self improvement
Killing boredom, and whatever else you ascribe to it. That's my take, at least.
Also, you get to join the elite social club of the enlightened. Nobody else around you is a member, so you get to enjoy loneliness. It's nice to be alone with your thoughts, with nobody to share them with.
Her fetish is specifically about other people's supposed intelligence, and I don't think she's a Sologamist

when life is short and in the grand scheme of things I am less than a temporary and fleeting raindrop in a storm?
Scales, scales my friend. Nothing matters to the Cosmos, except the astral realm and the Great Quantum Mind. You play an important role in all of this.

We're one of almost 8 billion people, that I find more amazing and significant personally. 

It is human to insist towards an uncaring Cosmos that we the individual matter. The harder lesson is letting go of that egoist hang up and learning to relax with the world the way it is. 

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last edit on 3/30/2022 8:42:13 PM
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0 votes RE: My flaws and strengths, a self analysis

Impulsively hacks friends and family social media accounts

Oh yeah I heard about that, that's kinda fucked up. 

Irrational attachments to other people. All love is irrational. 

Finding love irrational is more irrational, love makes sense. 


Lack of cognitive empathy

Antisocial

Morally questionable science experiments 

Completely apathetic with physical connections in relationships 

Doing horrible things behind the scenes because "science" 

"Invasive" thoughts about animals other than people

Frequent and habitual abstract deconstruction of physical reality and philosophy causes bodily disassociation 

Getting so caught up in my studies and my goals and experiments that I forget about the people around me

To impulsive

Finally outgrew God complex and stopped deforming plants and animals through crude forms of genetic alteration and stopped bringing dead animals back to life, finally stopped sewing live animals together. 


You... aren't hurting and abusing animals to make yourself feel better, are you? 

Internal faggot tendencies 

Woah language missy, there's nothing wrong with ghey people. 

Everything I do is stupid because I always know what I could have done better 

Wouldn't you be doing better if you didn't do that? 

Does feeling like most around me are less intelligent make me an ass? Am I imagining it? 

No offense but yes, yes you are. Everyone's got niche strengths and notable weaknesses, yet people tend to use this to build some sort of hierarchy. 

This is a common occurrence, assuming the world must be stupid or otherwise the one at fault for one's own suffering and problems. This is externalizing, and is typically done to vent frustration over one's ego's perception of it's own significance and superiority. The truth is that people are quite smart, they're just extremely varied and complicated, requiring us to be even smarter to navigate both that and ourselves within this. 

When they sit there and say the world is dumb or sucks, they are really saying they are not dumb and they do not suck by comparison to these other people. It's done as a form of protest towards the conditions they find themselves in, but isn't it peculiar that the majority of people do this? The majority can't all be smarter than their peers. 

Extreme sexism due to hatred for women 

Inability to emotionally connect with other people 

To hung up on proving femininity to self and others

Men are awful though, look at all that T-Poisoning. 

You probably just hate them because you don't want to find them sexy, you closet lesbo. I bet you'd find female hugs more comforting. 

Constantly thinking and so lost in head that I can't pay attention to what's around me. 

How do you know the world's dumb then, and how will you learn to navigate it, if you're always in your own head rather than the real world? 

It's time to leave Psychonauts for a minute and explore the campgrounds. 



To jaded with life for someone my age.

Bullshit, that's completely normal nowadays. 

To many secrets

The ones you rant when stressed, or the ones you keep even from us for some sort of agenda? 

To dominant in relationships

No such thing. 

Not a sheep

Sheep always say that, it shows their preoccupation with being "Different" to the point of joining a bunch of sheep with the same idea. 

It also tends to piggieback the whole "The World Sucks" narrative that people use to elevate themselves as if they're somehow better than that. 

Good at seeing through propaganda

Much like your listing of "Sheep", that's just yet more propaganda for people to think they're good at it while otherwise a practicing member of Bipartisan Politics. To think you 'can see it' is the propaganda, look how many people zealously hold onto that to defend their points. 


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last edit on 3/30/2022 8:47:29 PM
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