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It feels like sweetness and rainbows

Satan and the Antichrist are symbols you've allowed yourself to use as a proxy for your own pain and suffering. You figure that seeing them suffer will aleviate your own from believing they are the cause of your problems, rather than seeking the ways in which it is a problem from within yourself. 

By blaming others and projecting your thoughts onto them allows you to never have to look at what impacts are your own doing. Even the faith you've run towards is one where the rhetoric tells you how powerless humans are, yet how powerless everything else is next to a human, so that you can blame outside worldly forces for your pain. 

It lets you act like a sinful animal, wishing ill will, without it feeling "bad" since you're doing it over a "bad person". A true Christian would want to aid them, wouldn't they? 

What you're doing isn't that different from how people try to transfer emotional pain into physical pain by cutting, but you instead do this over your own pain as if others caused it. By doing this you do not have to face truths that'd otherwise hurt you, as you are like 99% averse to blaming yourself.

You chronically scapegoat and recontextualize former actions as to not face your own history, but in the process you don't know that much more about yourself from refusing to see the problem areas, save for when you're saying you're having these problems on purpose via Goddess stuff, giving everything a sense of being done on purpose rather than by chance. 

Turncoat said: 

Satan and the Antichrist are symbols you've allowed yourself to use as a proxy for your own pain and suffering. You figure that seeing them suffer will aleviate your own from believing they are the cause of your problems, rather than seeking the ways in which it is a problem from within yourself. 

By blaming others and projecting your thoughts onto them allows you to never have to look at what impacts are your own doing. Even the faith you've run towards is one where the rhetoric tells you how powerless humans are, yet how powerless everything else is next to a human, so that you can blame outside worldly forces for your pain. 

It lets you act like a sinful animal, wishing ill will, without it feeling "bad" since you're doing it over a "bad person". A true Christian would want to aid them, wouldn't they? 

What you're doing isn't that different from how people try to transfer emotional pain into physical pain by cutting, but you instead do this over your own pain as if others caused it. By doing this you do not have to face truths that'd otherwise hurt you, as you are like 99% averse to blaming yourself.

You chronically scapegoat and recontextualize former actions as to not face your own history, but in the process you don't know that much more about yourself from refusing to see the problem areas (save for when you're saying you're having these problems on purpose via Goddess stuff). 

 you are quite intelligent for a woman