I AM SORRY THAT I DO NOT FEEL GOOD ENOUGH AT BEING WHO GOD IS CALLING ME TO BE OR TAKING ON ALL OF THE RESPONSIBILITIES OF BEING A FEMALE CHRISTIAN LEADER YET
I AM SORRY THAT I HAVE MENTAL ILLNESS AND SATAN IN MY HEAD BEATING ME DOWN ALL OF THE TIME AND THAT I AM STILL A BABE IN CHRIST AND NEW TO GENUINELY BELIEVING IN JESUS BECAUSE I STOPPED BELIEVING FOT A LONG TIME AND THAT I AM STILL NEW TO RECOVERY AND ONLY ON MY FIRST STEP AND I AM COMING OUT OF SEVERE SUICIDAL DEPRESSION
I AM SORRY THAT I CHOSE TO MAKE STUPID DECISIONS AND THAT YOU HATE STUPID PEOPLE ALTHOUGH IT IS YOUR OWN CHOICE TO HATE STUPID PEOPLE SO THAT IS YOUR OWN PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY TO CONTINUE SINNING IN THAT WAY AND CONTINUE LIVING YOUR LIFE WITH THAT SINFUL MINDSET
I AM SORRY THAT I CANNOT FIGURE OUT HOW TO HAVE A PEACEFUL AND UPLIFTING AND ENCOURAGING RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU YET
I AM SORY THAT I DISSAPPOINTED YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE BY MAKING STUPID SELFISH PRIDEFUL DECISIONS
I AM SORRY THAT I CANNOT BE YOUR SAVIOR AND THAT I CANNOT MAKE EVERYTHING BETTER FOR YOU
I AM SORRY THAT I AM STRUGGLING WITH MENTAL DISORDERS AND ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER AND MEMORY LOSS ISSUES FORGETFULNESS AND THAT YOU SEEM TO HAVE NO GENUINE EMPATHY FOR MENTAL ILLNESS
I AM SORRY THAT YOU SEEM SCARED OF ME AND THAT YOU REACT TO ME LIKE YOU SEE ME AS A THREAT AND THAT YOU DECIDE TO TRY TO VERBALLY ABUSE ME AMD OTHER PEOPLE AS A DEFENSIVE COPING MECHANISM FOR FEELING OUT OF CONTEOL OF OTHER PEOPLE AND OF YOUR SURROUNDINGS
I AM SORRY THAT I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE AND LIKE NOTHING THAT I DO IS EVER GOOD ENOUGU AND HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM AND THAT I ACT THE WAY THAT I DO BECAUSE I BELIEVING THESE THINGS ABOUT MYSELF BUT I AM TRYING TO BELIEVE WHAT GOD SAYS ABOUT ME INSTEAD BUT I STILL DO NOT BELIEVE IT ALL THROUGHOUT MY SUBCONSCIOUS SO THAT IT POURS INTO MY COUNSCIOUSNESS AND OUT ONTO OTHER PEOPLE BY SAYING UPLIFTING AND ENCOURAGING THINGS TO THEM
I APOLOGIZE
