tc this is not the appropriate time to shit on other people extending their emotions
She's proven she can handle it.
tc this is not the appropriate time to shit on other people extending their emotions
She's proven she can handle it.
I have no idea what the fuck is going on but shut up
My little brother goes and tries to interact with random groups of happy people, only for the groups of people to be confused. He tries to run to groups and play with them and the people just get confused and reject him. He always looks longingly at people playing together. I want that for him. When I try to explain to the people what's going on and ask them to play with him, people get scared of my brother and they don't want to
I guess what I'm trying to say is, even though everyone wants him to change so they can accept him, I want the world to change instead so he can be accepted. I wish I could just be there with him while he's in a world like that. Maybe in some ways, I wish I was in a world like that to.
When I was a little girl, my parents always told me in heaven my brother would be "normal" and nothing would be wrong with him. This thought scared me, because that would mean my brother wouldn't be my brother anymore, and I would lose him.
If heaven is really heaven, and everything there is perfect, my brother wouldn't change because he is already perfect.
Maybe the world is imperfect, and that would change instead, and it would accept him just how he is
And to me, a world like that is sesame street.
I'm good with a dark blank void, anything else would overcomplicate things.
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Well that doesn't sound fun. I mean, would that be forever for you or?
I see fun as only being possible when balanced with a certain level of strain or stress. When I had a job or when I was in school, from it not being where I wanted to be it made being home more fun. When traveling on the road it can become easier to miss a home cooked meal. When by myself for long enough, that's when people become more of a hunger than something to tolerate. Without appetite, without yearning, none of the good things mean anything (to me), as it's through being stuck in the things I don't like that one can give more value to the things that do.
We see this sort of apathy develop in the second generation rich, the children of those who earned their wealth rather than the earners themselves. By having no immediate struggles that cannot be resolved with their wealth they end up gradually dissociating from the world from having less tethers to it, leading many to take up surprisingly hard drugs just to feel something. Without a means of yearning for something everything loses it's value.
This is supposedly why many forms of Heaven offer to rid you of 'Sin' or other hang ups that'd otherwise serve to undermine one's enjoyment of the afterlife, but I see such draining as dehumanizing, converting them into something so different that they are no longer truly themselves. The idea of Hell and Purgatory by comparison seem hellish over how they pretty much change nothing about you, but at least with the presence of such strong strife one might be able to find a demonic sort of glee in whatever else is still allowed to be fun.
These needs however are an extension of the appetite itself; What makes things seem less fun without it is over the comparison. It is because we have a hunger for more that we suffer, which is why many forms of Eastern faith aim to detach from worldly tethers to "Truly see the world", promoting the idea of emptying one's mind of pre-expectation rather than filling it, expecting nothing as to ascend the hunger that is inherent to the human condition. While I see this as waling one's self away from life for their own sense of peace, which over only living once I see as potentially wasteful, this gives models of comparison for some afterlives that, from it being timeless, would not mean the same things as it would on Earth.
The idea of afterlives, be it the cycle of rebirth where one must suffer for generations as a spirit inhabiting other bodies until it learns all it can know, promises that 'Nirvana' is a blissful emptiness. As someone with Insomnia, I can only imagine this feeling like the bliss of sleep without the presence of dreams, a state with no immediate needs or desires where no pressing head pains or body aches can interrupt, where no surrounding sounds could hope to budge me. I see peace in the emptiness, rather than peace in filling the end with THINGS, over how I see life at it's core as being based around suffering.
This of course is just my perspective on it, and I can understand how it looks like a sad belief, but I see emptiness as the true bliss and comfort, and how eternal it makes itself out to be by comparison to the life I'm living now only being the case once gives the impression that I shouldn't necessarily be in any rush to get there. There is an Existential beauty to life through it's seemingly endless connections to each other, and once I've learned enough I can finally rest.
This is likely a side effect of me deifying the concept of Sleep, which is pretty expected from an Insomniac imo. Over how hard it is to achieve it's practically become my god.
tc this is not the appropriate time to shit on other people extending their emotions
She's proven she can handle it.
I have no idea what the fuck is going on but shut up
He's saying that you don't have the mental fortitude to hear another perspective right now, while I'd think otherwise based on how much you've already faced.
I'm good with a dark blank void, anything else would overcomplicate things.
?
Well that doesn't sound fun. I mean, would that be forever for you or?
I see fun as only being possible when balanced with a certain level of strain or stress. When I had a job or when I was in school, from it not being where I wanted to be it made being home more fun. When traveling on the road it can become easier to miss a home cooked meal. When by myself for long enough, that's when people become more of a hunger than something to tolerate. Without appetite, without yearning, none of the good things mean anything (to me), as it's through being stuck in the things I don't like that one can give more value to the things that do.
We see this sort of apathy develop in the second generation rich, the children of those who earned their wealth rather than the earners themselves. By having no immediate struggles that cannot be resolved with their wealth they end up gradually dissociating from the world from having less tethers to it, leading many to take up surprisingly hard drugs just to feel something. Without a means of yearning for something everything loses it's value.
This is supposedly why many forms of Heaven offer to rid you of 'Sin' or other hang ups that'd otherwise serve to undermine one's enjoyment of the afterlife, but I see such draining as dehumanizing, converting them into something so different that they are no longer truly themselves. The idea of Hell and Purgatory by comparison seem hellish over how they pretty much change nothing about you, but at least with the presence of such strong strife one might be able to find a demonic sort of glee in whatever else is still allowed to be fun.
These needs however are an extension of the appetite itself; What makes things seem less fun without it is over the comparison. It is because we have a hunger for more that we suffer, which is why many forms of Eastern faith aim to detach from worldly tethers to "Truly see the world", promoting the idea of emptying one's mind of pre-expectation rather than filling it, expecting nothing as to ascend the hunger that is inherent to the human condition. While I see this as waling one's self away from life for their own sense of peace, which over only living once I see as potentially wasteful, this gives models of comparison for some afterlives that, from it being timeless, would not mean the same things as it would on Earth.
The idea of afterlives, be it the cycle of rebirth where one must suffer for generations as a spirit inhabiting other bodies until it learns all it can know, promises that 'Nirvana' is a blissful emptiness. As someone with Insomnia, I can only imagine this feeling like the bliss of sleep without the presence of dreams, a state with no immediate needs or desires where no pressing head pains or body aches can interrupt, where no surrounding sounds could hope to budge me. I see peace in the emptiness, rather than peace in filling the end with THINGS, over how I see life at it's core as being based around suffering.
This of course is just my perspective on it, and I can understand how it looks like a sad belief, but I see emptiness as the true bliss and comfort, and how eternal it makes itself out to be by comparison to the life I'm living now only being the case once gives the impression that I shouldn't necessarily be in any rush to get there. There is an Existential beauty to life through it's seemingly endless connections to each other, and once I've learned enough I can finally rest.
This is likely a side effect of me deifying the concept of Sleep, which is pretty expected from an Insomniac imo. Over how hard it is to achieve it's practically become my god.
I don't understand
Turncoat said:🌺plumeria🌺 said:Turncoat said:I'm good with a dark blank void, anything else would overcomplicate things.
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Well that doesn't sound fun. I mean, would that be forever for you or?I see fun as only being possible when balanced with a certain level of strain or stress. When I had a job or when I was in school, from it not being where I wanted to be it made being home more fun. When traveling on the road it can become easier to miss a home cooked meal. When by myself for long enough, that's when people become more of a hunger than something to tolerate. Without appetite, without yearning, none of the good things mean anything (to me), as it's through being stuck in the things I don't like that one can give more value to the things that do.
We see this sort of apathy develop in the second generation rich, the children of those who earned their wealth rather than the earners themselves. By having no immediate struggles that cannot be resolved with their wealth they end up gradually dissociating from the world from having less tethers to it, leading many to take up surprisingly hard drugs just to feel something. Without a means of yearning for something everything loses it's value.
This is supposedly why many forms of Heaven offer to rid you of 'Sin' or other hang ups that'd otherwise serve to undermine one's enjoyment of the afterlife, but I see such draining as dehumanizing, converting them into something so different that they are no longer truly themselves. The idea of Hell and Purgatory by comparison seem hellish over how they pretty much change nothing about you, but at least with the presence of such strong strife one might be able to find a demonic sort of glee in whatever else is still allowed to be fun.
These needs however are an extension of the appetite itself; What makes things seem less fun without it is over the comparison. It is because we have a hunger for more that we suffer, which is why many forms of Eastern faith aim to detach from worldly tethers to "Truly see the world", promoting the idea of emptying one's mind of pre-expectation rather than filling it, expecting nothing as to ascend the hunger that is inherent to the human condition. While I see this as waling one's self away from life for their own sense of peace, which over only living once I see as potentially wasteful, this gives models of comparison for some afterlives that, from it being timeless, would not mean the same things as it would on Earth.
The idea of afterlives, be it the cycle of rebirth where one must suffer for generations as a spirit inhabiting other bodies until it learns all it can know, promises that 'Nirvana' is a blissful emptiness. As someone with Insomnia, I can only imagine this feeling like the bliss of sleep without the presence of dreams, a state with no immediate needs or desires where no pressing head pains or body aches can interrupt, where no surrounding sounds could hope to budge me. I see peace in the emptiness, rather than peace in filling the end with THINGS, over how I see life at it's core as being based around suffering.
This of course is just my perspective on it, and I can understand how it looks like a sad belief, but I see emptiness as the true bliss and comfort, and how eternal it makes itself out to be by comparison to the life I'm living now only being the case once gives the impression that I shouldn't necessarily be in any rush to get there. There is an Existential beauty to life through it's seemingly endless connections to each other, and once I've learned enough I can finally rest.
This is likely a side effect of me deifying the concept of Sleep, which is pretty expected from an Insomniac imo. Over how hard it is to achieve it's practically become my god.I don't understand
I assume you read it all, which part's confusing?
Turncoat said:🌺plumeria🌺 said:Turncoat said:I'm good with a dark blank void, anything else would overcomplicate things.
?
Well that doesn't sound fun. I mean, would that be forever for you or?I see fun as only being possible when balanced with a certain level of strain or stress. When I had a job or when I was in school, from it not being where I wanted to be it made being home more fun. When traveling on the road it can become easier to miss a home cooked meal. When by myself for long enough, that's when people become more of a hunger than something to tolerate. Without appetite, without yearning, none of the good things mean anything (to me), as it's through being stuck in the things I don't like that one can give more value to the things that do.
We see this sort of apathy develop in the second generation rich, the children of those who earned their wealth rather than the earners themselves. By having no immediate struggles that cannot be resolved with their wealth they end up gradually dissociating from the world from having less tethers to it, leading many to take up surprisingly hard drugs just to feel something. Without a means of yearning for something everything loses it's value.
This is supposedly why many forms of Heaven offer to rid you of 'Sin' or other hang ups that'd otherwise serve to undermine one's enjoyment of the afterlife, but I see such draining as dehumanizing, converting them into something so different that they are no longer truly themselves. The idea of Hell and Purgatory by comparison seem hellish over how they pretty much change nothing about you, but at least with the presence of such strong strife one might be able to find a demonic sort of glee in whatever else is still allowed to be fun.
These needs however are an extension of the appetite itself; What makes things seem less fun without it is over the comparison. It is because we have a hunger for more that we suffer, which is why many forms of Eastern faith aim to detach from worldly tethers to "Truly see the world", promoting the idea of emptying one's mind of pre-expectation rather than filling it, expecting nothing as to ascend the hunger that is inherent to the human condition. While I see this as waling one's self away from life for their own sense of peace, which over only living once I see as potentially wasteful, this gives models of comparison for some afterlives that, from it being timeless, would not mean the same things as it would on Earth.
The idea of afterlives, be it the cycle of rebirth where one must suffer for generations as a spirit inhabiting other bodies until it learns all it can know, promises that 'Nirvana' is a blissful emptiness. As someone with Insomnia, I can only imagine this feeling like the bliss of sleep without the presence of dreams, a state with no immediate needs or desires where no pressing head pains or body aches can interrupt, where no surrounding sounds could hope to budge me. I see peace in the emptiness, rather than peace in filling the end with THINGS, over how I see life at it's core as being based around suffering.
This of course is just my perspective on it, and I can understand how it looks like a sad belief, but I see emptiness as the true bliss and comfort, and how eternal it makes itself out to be by comparison to the life I'm living now only being the case once gives the impression that I shouldn't necessarily be in any rush to get there. There is an Existential beauty to life through it's seemingly endless connections to each other, and once I've learned enough I can finally rest.
This is likely a side effect of me deifying the concept of Sleep, which is pretty expected from an Insomniac imo. Over how hard it is to achieve it's practically become my god.I don't understand
I assume you read it all, which part's confusing?
I read it all, but to me I felt like I was just reading words that had no meaning because of the complicated way of speaking I think
TLDR; I see desire as the route to pleasure and pain, like a hunger, and that true comfort can only be found by being in a state where no desire exists. Life feels like an addiction to me, so I'd hope that death would be how it feels to be relieved of that hunger.
It's kind of like "Absence makes the heart grow fonder", but with said hunger being a form of suffering that grants the pleasure meaning. Beyond that a lot of it was just examples over how one who suffers less tends to seemingly seek it, like hungering to be hungry in a way.
TLDR; I see desire as the route to pleasure and pain, like a hunger, and that true comfort can only be found by being in a state where no desire exists. Life feels like an addiction to me, so I'd hope that death would be how it feels to be relieved of that hunger.
It's kind of like "Absence makes the heart grow fonder", but with said hunger being a form of suffering that grants the pleasure meaning. Beyond that a lot of it was just examples over how one who suffers less tends to seemingly seek it, like hungering to be hungry in a way.
OH ok I understand better. Well, desire can be good because when you get what you desire, you feel good
