01:19 🌺plumeria🌺: I am depressed because the woman who I once thought was a grumpy old woman has become my best friend
01:19 🌺plumeria🌺: I hang out with her every day, and she makes me so happy
01:19 🌺plumeria🌺: And she says I am the only good thing in her life and that no one sees her anymore
01:19 🌺plumeria🌺: But she is dying of cancer and I am depressed
01:20 Med: Miserable
01:20 Med: Miserable
01:20 Med: Miserable
01:20 🌺plumeria🌺: Today her and I were watching Winnie the Pooh together and we had egg sandwiches
01:20 🌺plumeria🌺: And we played jacks
01:21 🌺plumeria🌺: A was well but she asked me to help her write her last will and testament, she needed to answer questions on her papers but she is blind and can't read
01:21 🌺plumeria🌺: After may she is going to the hospital for a surgery
01:22 🌺plumeria🌺: I saved up enough money to go see her and camp at the national park there while I visit
01:22 🌺plumeria🌺: But they told me because of covid-19 I can't visit her in the hospital
01:22 🌺plumeria🌺: Saving up the money to see her was supposed to be a surprise
01:22 🌺plumeria🌺: I am scared that once she leaves to the hospital she won't come back out alive after the surgery
01:23 🌺plumeria🌺: I act like I am happy around her because I want her to be happy, but secretly I am incredibly scared and sad
01:23 🌺plumeria🌺: She brings me so much joy to be with and play with and I love helping her and talking with her
01:23 🌺plumeria🌺: But soon she will die
01:24 🌺plumeria🌺: A few months ago I would have told you this woman is a grouchy old lady and that I think she's mean
01:24 🌺plumeria🌺: But she turned out to be the best thing in my life right now
01:26 🌺plumeria🌺: When I was helping her with her last will and testament I started crying and I didn't mean to but I was able to calm down and keep helping her, i didn't cry to crazily though because I didn't want to upset her, I just started choking up and my throat got
01:26 🌺plumeria🌺: Tight and I couldn't talk without giving away that I was upset
01:27 🌺plumeria🌺: But it's ok, there are lots of good times to
01:27 🌺plumeria🌺: Tomorrow her and I are going to the mall together, and we are going to buy glitter and we are going to Hallmark
01:27 🌺plumeria🌺: We are going to do arts and crafts
01:28 🌺plumeria🌺: I don't talk about it much but this isn't the first time this has happened
01:28 🌺plumeria🌺: Something like this
01:28 🌺plumeria🌺: I used to be lonely so I would go into the nursing home and talk to the residents there
01:29 🌺plumeria🌺: And we became friends but, when you have friends who are old, eventually, they die. Some of them left me presents when they died, like necklaces or dolls
01:30 🌺plumeria🌺: And, it makes me happy, being able to make people happy in a time in their lives when they are as lonely as I am, and they are about to pass on and they are scared. But when they die, I become very sad
01:30 🌺plumeria🌺: So I told myself I would stop
01:30 🌺plumeria🌺: But I can't help it
01:31 🌺plumeria🌺: I can't help but make friends with people sometimes
01:32 🌺plumeria🌺: But I know they are in good hands because I met the angel of death before and he's very nice
01:32 🌺plumeria🌺: Maybe that's a part of why he said hello to me
01:34 🌺plumeria🌺: So I know all my friends are going to be OK
01:35 Med: I’m so miserable🌺plumeria🌺: My friend is going to be OK
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