just venting and praying one last prayer before I probably take a break from sociopathcommunity
Jesus, maybe I do not deserve it, I do not know, but perfect love is supposed to cast out all fear and doubt, and I really need this from you right now, I am wanting to trust you and to take bigger and bigger leaps of faith, but you know that I have severe ptsd and so much trauma held within my body and soul consciously and subconsciously
I can want to follow after you, but when it triggers the fear in me it makes me want to rebel, and push away, and even give up. I know that because of my own sinning it put me in a position that I have become this traumatized, and I am not necessarily blaming you I can take responsibility for this, but I also know that in Your Word you promise that you can and will get me out of this, and I am trying to trust this and to trust that your grace and forgiveness and mercy and love are truly unconditional, but I need help in taking these bigger leaps of faith, Jesus
please show me and continuously assure me that I can continue to trust you, because I feel so scared right now I need you and your wisdom so much right now
I worship and adore You Jesus, and I am dying to put you first in my life, and I want you to lead me and guide me and and teach me and give me the wisdom to humbly and unconditionally love You that way that you claim to humbly and unconditionally love me, but to give up everything that I have put before you in my life I really feel like I am needing you to cast out all of these fears and doubts out of me
please Jesus, work some miracles in my life, I am really needing you to make putting you first in my life possible for me, please give me the ability to do this Jesus, If it is Your Will Jesus, In Your precious beautiful holy name I pray Jesus, Amen 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊✝️