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Jesus, I feel like it is also your responsibility to earn my trust


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just venting and praying one last prayer before I probably take a break from sociopathcommunity

 

Jesus,  maybe I do not deserve it,  I do not know,  but perfect love is supposed to cast out all fear and doubt,  and I really need this from you right now,  I am wanting to trust you and to take bigger and bigger leaps of faith,  but you know that I have severe ptsd  and so much trauma held within my body and soul  consciously and subconsciously

 

I can want to follow after you,  but when it triggers the fear in me it makes me want to rebel, and push away, and even give up.  I know that because of my own sinning it put me in a position that I have become this traumatized, and I am not necessarily blaming you I can take responsibility for this,  but I also know that in Your Word you promise that you can and will get me out of this,  and I am trying to trust this and to trust that your grace and forgiveness and mercy and love are truly unconditional,  but I need help in taking these bigger leaps of faith,  Jesus

 

please show me and continuously assure me that I can continue to trust you,  because I feel so scared right now  I need you and your wisdom so much right now

 

I worship and adore You Jesus,  and I am dying to put you first in my life, and I want you to lead me and guide me and and teach me and give me the wisdom to humbly and unconditionally love You that way that you claim to humbly and unconditionally love me,  but to give up everything that I have put before you in my life  I really feel like I am needing you to cast out all of these fears and doubts out of me

 

please Jesus,  work some miracles in my life,  I am really needing you to make putting you first in my life possible for me,  please give me the ability to do this Jesus,  If it is Your Will Jesus,  In Your precious beautiful holy name I pray Jesus,  Amen  🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊✝️

 

 

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If you are earnest, I think your prayers will be answered.  Please have faith; it will be rewarded.  Perhaps you are being taught patience and courage by confronting your fear and urgency.

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Jesus literally died for everyone, what more does he have to prove? 

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Jesus literally died for everyone, what more does he have to prove? 

 Rude, but it's a good point.

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I'm just gonna vent really quickly 

God and all his lil bum ass versions like Jesus or what over here doing absolutely nothing and taking all the fucking credit. The fucking audacity.

I see a homeless person rifling through trash looking through take out containers and food bags for what i assume is food right? So I'm like 'help your fellow man cos its your responsibility to help those in need and also something something golden rule's so I go and give this man my food i had just bought, chicken marsala with broccoli and garlic bread and he's like super happy so I give him my food and he goes 

"Thank you, I prayed and God provides"

Like no, bro that was me. That ain't an act of god. If god provides why haven't you been praying for a way out of homeless? Can god not provide you a house? You not praying enough? Why the fuck is he gonna bum the food credit off of me?? God can't throw you a nice meal? You gonna give him credit for something someone else did??

So anyway the probably had schizophrenia- started telling about the spiders underneath his skin.

 

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Jesus literally died for everyone, what more does he have to prove? 

 Rude, but it's a good point.

Just saying she's addressing Jesus as if He owes her anything, when He is the spokesperson for God, the Creator who made her and the rest of us in the first place. 

For as much struggle as she's going through, and for as much as The Bible says to put your all into leaning on God in lieu of carrying yourself, this technically is a depressed form of entitlement. Jesus has done so much already, demanding He do more isn't really right either. 

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Both bring up the misplacement of gratitude or "credit"...

Even in praying for personal strength or asking for guidance and wisdom, the fulfillment of this wishful prayer neglects how the person enabled themselves into successful action.  Jesus admonished this sort of prayer.  I believe he directed prayer to be more about contrition, forgiveness and gratitude.  Also, this is why faith is rewarded, but often it's the price that gets forgotten.  Forgiveness might be free, but wisdom and growth surely aren't.

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I believe he directed prayer to be more about contrition, forgiveness and gratitude.

Also concern over another's wellbeing, it's often mentioned how it's normal to pray over another's outcomes. 

Forgiveness might be free, but wisdom and growth surely aren't.

Forgiveness in this case is effectively a tool to help people move on rather than be stuck dwelling over the same loops and patterns. If anything taking forgiveness towards a gluttonous excess can have the opposite effect. 

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Prayer is probably best considered as a practice of mantra; a meditative tool.  It shows you your own mind, while offering a platform to consider changing it.

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