wow you guys and Satan are probably all so right cool
I am still going to be a Christian though
'til death do I and Jesus part, and hopefully he never kills me and condemns me to eternal hell but he might I do not know I am less assured since I committed apostasy and gave up temporarily but I repented with godly sorrow and am continuing to seek Jesus and to try to do Jesus's Will and to try to become more like Jesus
so I am just going to do that, whatever
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I don't hate you. You may make mistakes but so does everyone else, you're human. I don't see you as some form of embodiment of evil. Continue to do you.
thank you
Jesus loves me and has forgiven me for all of my past, present and future sins, and we as Christians are not under the law anymore but under grace now this is what the New Testament says that the New Covenant is
I knew this just before I got angry at Jesus and said that I didn't trust him because I kept trying and trying and trying to be good for him and that I give up because it wasn't happening, and I was partly testing to see if it held up that I was truly under grace and that nothing could separate me from Jesus since I am sealed by the holy spirit
but I was also just angry and frustrated and ready to be condemned to eternal hell because I didn't feel like it was fair how lost he was letting me stay even though I was trying and seeking wisdom at the time
I do not really want to be without Jesus though, I was just angry and frustrated at him and felt like he wasn't helping me to do a better job of being good enough or giving me enough wisdom
but I suppose that it is not up to me to be the judge of what is fair and just or not
sighh
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