just venting
do you really think that Jesus would be so cruel as to draw his wife to studying and listening to his scriptures, just to dangle himself like a carrot only to cast her away eventually ?
Satan does that, not Jesus, Jesus's invitation is open to everyone no matter what you have done or what sins you are struggling with, if you keep believing that he died for all of your sins and that you are free from charge in his eyes, and that he has saved you and will keep saving you, that is all that you have to do and try to do his will more and more step by step
with Paul, it happened instantly but with me, he wants me to unlearn and stop believing all of the lies that I was believing, since I have a passive influence in every single human being and it is influencing them to unlearn and stop believing the lies too
and it is really sad to know that if I died, that influence would have just stopped being there in everyone 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
I influence beauty, whether I am evil or righteous, and without me Satanism is so base and pathetic. "I AM A GOD AND SO SUPER SPECIAL AND EVERYTHING I DO IS JUST SO MAGINIFICIENT AND WONDERFUL EVEN VIOLENCE AND POOPING" -.-
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