Why were they inadequate?
teeny tiny, not intelligent enough to keep my attention in conversations, would get bored of them very very quickly, many reasons
I eventually had to resort to creating fantasy relationships in my head to stay attracted to men so I created fantasy men, and after even that became boring I started wanting to just seduce and then leave them devastatingly heartbroken lol like I did with my most recent in real life ex unfortunately, who proposed to me and then suicide attempted after I left him to move to Los Angeles since he was abusive and too possessive of me
I didn't know that Satan and God were real 100 percent unquestioning undoubtingly until recently, this year, and also Satan started raping me this year, but I always had a very high sex drive in the past and was turned on all the time, but he only started actually raping me this year so I don't think it was Satan's fault that I was like that, that I had such a high sex drive, I think I became like that after God cursed me for leaving Him
I think he can only rape me because of some loophole with me being part cursed and sinful natured still and part holy spirit filled, I am not sure why he is allowed to rape me lol I have asked God to make him stop many times, and tried to command him to stop and it doesn't happen