I think that the relationships shift (this being the latest shift), but whatever the underlying cause is remains. I'm not knocking you finding faith (maybe it's great for you), just pointing out a pattern where you believe yourself a part of something extraordinary and special. I would guess it's an ego defense to fight feelings of inadequacy.
it is more that no masculine was ever adequate enough for me, including Satan, except for God
sorry if the truth hurts............ 🤷♀️🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊✝️
but not really, because I am instructed to speak the truth and be honest, and confess my sins, and try correct and heal any damage that I have caused I the past to all of humankind, as much as I possibly can anyway