not because I'm scared of "finding out I'm wrong", or "being proved that I'm wrong", because I am not scared of either of these two things at all and I've always been very open minded and curious about the world and the beliefs of others and all of the existential questions and philosophies about life, and actually being proved wrong would be a relief because I don't necessary agree with Jesus that I think it is fine to just burn the conscious sentient fallen angels and humans that didn't love him back for forever (but I do because He tells me that I have to agree with it, but emotionally I don't truly at least not yet but I am also not God and I do not understand His divine reasons)
but it's more, before I was saved I used to be very sensitive to any negative criticism or hatred or anger directed at me because I wanted to be liked by everyone (in all actuality worshipped by everyone), and ironically this led to me being at odds with everyone and most people hating me and me hating everyone, but I think I am becoming much less sensitive now because of Jesus saving me
🤞 *fingers crossed* as in I hope so
