Jesus didn't belittle His children
it's just more the fact that I tried to have intimate partner relationships with them in the past during this lifetime, because I didn't remember who I am until recently, that I was laughing at
because it was so ridiculous and so obvious why it never worked out looooooooooool, since Jesus is my true partner and Satan was my second partner,
I'm not designed to be the partner of men, but in my amnesiac state I was trying for like, waaaaaaaaaaaay too many years
I forgive them and myself though, this was God's Will and He knew I wouldn't remember until He revealed it to me in His timing
it's funny to me, but it was also very traumatic and confusing when they would try to dominate me, anf then got mad at me because they couldn't, only Michael was able to and that is because his power comes from Satan, and God would have allowed him to use that power to kill me
like I literally have so much shame and guilt over not being able to be dominated and men hating me for this reason, it is the primary source of all of my trauma in this lifetime you have no idea looooooooooool
like I'm not joking though but I can't stop laughing at how ridiculous it was trying to be in partnership relationships with them
You were saying Jesus did some stuff to you that you weren't fine with until he was done, right?
What'd he do?
No, well I guess I'm not fine with Him cursing me like Satan after I left Him but I have to forgive otherwise I'm going to be condemned to eternal hell
like mostly I'm frustrated about how much trauma and dark sinful evil s*** has to be undone in me, like I can clearly see how much is wrong with me that needs to be corrected and all of my fear and anger that is holding me back from doing Jesus's Will, but I can't fix any of it myself I have to let Him do everything and just try my best to obey when I have new revelations about changing my behavior for the better and so on
I'm impatient, so I'm praying for patience, and for letting go of my desire to be in control
You were saying Jesus did some stuff to you that you weren't fine with until he was done, right?
What'd he do?No, well I guess I'm not fine with Him cursing me like Satan after I left Him but I have to forgive otherwise I'm going to be condemned to eternal hell
Forgive... Jesus?
You were saying Jesus did some stuff to you that you weren't fine with until he was done, right?
What'd he do?No, well I guess I'm not fine with Him cursing me like Satan after I left Him but I have to forgive otherwise I'm going to be condemned to eternal hell
Forgive... Jesus?
Yes lol, not because He did anything wrong, according to Himself and He is the ultimate authority, but I have to forgive as in not be angry at Him
maybe forgive isn't the right word
yeah forgive is the wrong word lol, that is my pride showing itself
but stop being angry, I know I still have a lot of unaddressed anger at Him, and I'm planning to start journalling and praying every morning and talking to Him about it, so that He can heal me, because yeah I really do have a ton of anger at Him, and truly all of my problems are my own fault for my own foolish prideful decisions and I know that logically, but emotionally I'm still angry
