shit shit shit. I forgot about this website back when I hated Christianity and was a skeptic of it, but I was pondering over a certain question in my head which brought me to this site
and now I'm doubting christianity and Jesus again, and now I'm wondering if I really am an mk ultra joke and if I am I'm probably dead soon
I think I'm just having a hard time reconciling my "fruits of the Spirit and full of grace and forgiveness" gentle version of Jesus with God's sometimes violent judgements in the Old Testament and in the book of Revelation in the New Testament on the world and the people inhabiting it, but I still believe God is real, and Jesus is God, and the holy bible is God's holy word, after further examination
Also, God talks about the Queen of heaven in the old testament in a negative way which is undoubtedly a reference to myself
Jeremiah 7:18
18 The children gather wood, and the fathers kindle the fire, and the women knead their dough, to make cakes to the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto other gods, that they may provoke me to anger.
Jeremiah 44:17-19
17 But we will certainly do whatsoever thing goeth forth out of our own mouth, to burn incense unto the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto her, as we have done, we, and our fathers, our kings, and our princes, in the cities of Judah, and in the streets of Jerusalem: for then had we plenty of victuals, and were well, and saw no evil.
18 But since we left off to burn incense to the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto her, we have wanted all things, and have been consumed by the sword and by the famine.
19 And when we burned incense to the queen of heaven, and poured out drink offerings unto her, did we make her cakes to worship her, and pour out drink offerings unto her, without our men?
doubting my faith and Jesus being God because of forgetting that He has a violent judgemental side to him like that was really not fun and now I want to cry, I've realized that nothing has any value to me without Jesus existing anymore and I'd likely commit suicide
God does have a violent and judgemental side to him, and this is what many people have a problem with
Ehhhh that was just a phase. Supposedly He doesn't do that kind of stuff anymore, or at least no one's jotting it down.
but I'd personally rather not have a problem with it and not be condemned to eternal hell
Rather not? Does this mean if Hell wasn't at risk that you would object to it?
doubting my faith and Jesus being God because of forgetting that He has a violent judgemental side to him like that was really not fun and now I want to cry, I've realized that nothing has any value to me without Jesus existing anymore and I'd likely commit suicide
Jesus doesn't have a violent side to him (on record anyway, might have when he was a teenager or something), and he wasn't written as being judgemental, these are just traits attributed to God's 'Love'.
You're sure it's not Satan disguised as an Angel of Light?
Also, God talks about the Queen of heaven in the old testament in a negative way which is undoubtedly a reference to myself
You mean The Virgin Mary?
