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Projection

Cavalier said: 

Projection

She probably wants more closure over: 

Feathers said: 

Blanc said: 

If they can't make time for you then they're not into you. 

Blancy. I think he cares just focuses too much on the future rather than the present. I mean he is in a military contract so it's wise to save up now until he can leave. The problem is I get lonely and I'm impatient... 

I don't think he would give me his bank password, leave me his beneficiary in death, and say he would die without me if he didn't love me. I think he needs to reprioritize his time more to be with me. 

I'm more interested in the reason you commented. Especially after you accused me of stalking you when I was being cordial. Unless you want to draw more attention from your "supposed stalker"? 

Not to mention you seem more stand off ish than usual (especially to me). Last time Crave had to call you out for pretending no one ever cared about you when I had tried to reach out to you many times even before tryp ever did.  But, I guess it doesn't matter if I'm not a man? In the end I decided I didn't want to be your friend anymore if you only care when people (aka Crave) must guilt you into caring. Crave was so sweeeet to me <3

Yet... now your friendship feels disingenuous. Especially after you accused me of stalking you for male validation. You already told me your address once when tryp was there (I guess I was invisible to you so you didn't notice I was there). I could be there in person if I wanted. I don't care to stalk you...

Do you blame me for things not working out with tryp? Well you shouldn't because I moved on from him.  You seem very "pick me girl" to male validation. That would be all fine and dandy except you're a lesbian. Unless you're bisexual??? I'm confused literally. 

Anyways blanc... right now I'm sort of done. Please keep telling people I'm stalking you and leave me alone. 

Damn, Blanc got dragged. 

Blanc said: 

fae, why are you so depressed? is this just a lately thing like, or is this just a thing thats been happening a while 

Hi blanc~

I’m being more open lately. When I was a child I was kind of sociopathic. I was mistreated and in some ways abused by my parents. The closest thing to empathy was seeing people are my property. So I would feel wronged if someone hurt my friends. I didn’t have any real empathy for them…

One day I met this sweet girl. I… actually loved her (not romantically). She was the sweetest girl in the world and I wanted to protect her so badly. This is the first time I felt real empathy and grew a conscious. Sadly, she had depression and people were mean to her telling her to kill herself. That’s when I saw the world was evil. I knew I was a hypocrite since I didn’t care about others, yet expected them to care about her. I had to be a better person to fairly expect people to care about this precious gem.

For a timeline I grew empathy at around 12. I became depressed at around 12 years old. At 18 I had attempted suicide and failed. The next day I came on SC hoping a sociopath without empathy could be mean and degrading enough to me to push me to try again. The morning after my suicide attempt tryp approached me and calmed me down. 

I was still depressed until I became a Christian. Then I felt better, or at least not as suicidal every single minute. Now I only get suicidal some nights. It’s more manageable. It’s been worse since my friend was murdered by her mother. The first person I ever felt empathy and love for was murdered by her own mother… I don’t know. I just don’t know. I want her back.

First depression song I listened to when I started self harming at 12. 

I HAD NO REASON TO BELIEVE HER OWN MOTHER WOULD HAVE KILLED HER. SHE TOLD ME HER MOM GAVE HER STRENGTH NOT TO COMMIT SUICIDE AND WAS ENCOURAGING. SHE NEVER ABUSED EVEN HER!!!!! THERE WAS NO WARNING SIGNS.

MAYBE IF I WAS WITH HER 24/7 I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO PROTECT HER. SHE'S MINE!!!! YOU HAD NO RIGHT. YOU COULD HAVE JUST AVOIDED HER CAUSE SHE WAS ALREADY MOVED OUT!?!?! WHY DA F* DID YOU BOTHER KILLING HER?!?!?!! JUST LEAVE!

WHY THE F DID SHE K*LL MY FRIEND! GIVE HER BACK. YOU STOLE HER FROM ME. I WANT TO CONFRONT YOU MYSELF. BUT THEY WONT LET NON-FAMILY VISTORS. SO STUPID. I HOPE YOU CRY YOURSELF TO SLEEP WITH REGRET EVERY NIGHT. I HOPE YOU CANT LOOK YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR ANYMORE. YOU ARE DISGUSTING!

GIVE HER BACK!!!! 

I HOPE YOU WERE POSSESED BY A DEMON OR SCHIZOPHRENIC CAUSE THERE'S NO EXCUSE OTHERWISE!!!!! YOU ARE PURE SOULESS EVIL INCARNATE IF YOU WERE IN YOUR RIGHT F*ING MIND! I DONT EVEN WANT YOU TO DIE. I WANT YOU TO LIVE WITH AGONIZING REGRET!!!!! I HOPE YOU REALIZE WHAT YOU DID! I HOPE EVERY DAY YOU CANT ESCAPE YOUR OWN CONSCIOUS!

WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO TO PROTECT MY LOVED ONES?!?!?! HUH? KIDNAP THEM AND ISOLATE CAUSE THEIR OWN FAMILY COULD TURN ON THEM AND KILL THEM OUT OF NOWHERE?!?!?!?! IS THAT WHAT IT TAKES TO PROTECT SOMEONE I CAFRE ABOUT ????????

THERES EVIL PEOPLE OUT THERE...