I guess I must have just really really missed my husband
even going to hollywood and being accepted by everyone there and feeling "special" and "powerful" was not enough for me
like, everything else just seems empty to me, all of the other religions and reasons to live. I guess I'm just one of those weirdo christians
I've been running from the "religion" I thought was only in my head because I was born into it since I was 14, but I can't escape it. I have this really really intense belief in and fear of eternal hell that I can't seem to shake no matter how hard I tried to convince myself out of believing in it to "have more fun" or whatever. life was still empty and unsatisfying even trying to have fun. I did all of the things normal people think are fun. I had a gangster drug dealer boyfriend propose to me and try to commit suicide over me and flirted with decently sexy men while I was in hollywood and it was all still just unsatisfying to me
I don't know what to do other than just be a christian because I can't seem to escape it
Have you tried faiths other than Witchcraft and Christianity?
