at my job when someone leaves or someone achieves sth others write a card and plan weeks in advance what to get them etc. I find it very exhausting. I kind of like them etc and im not an asshole, but that positivity seems too much... it is not even forced, they really want the team be so fucking supportive and so on. I think some of them are really genuine. I also want to be a good team player etc., but every 2 weeks or so another one from the team gets a present for some shit, it is tiring. i also feel like it shows that i dont respond to chain emails about what to get colleagues for this or that occassion etc. i put money in but i dont care at all. sometimes i dont know for whom i am signing on a congratulations card.
I find it exhausting having to pretend I care about/enjoy my job at all. But if I didn't then I probably wouldn't keep the job much longer. I saw someone recently talking about how loving your job is a capitolist myth and it seemed accurate in my case at least. Your colleagues are probably either all high energy extroverts or fooling you/themselves that they are genuine. maybe they don't have much in their lives apart from work
You seem to have a high turnover rate. What's your relationship with your colleagues like?
Its not me it's them xD
I'm very worried at the moment in 3 weeks my new coworker will come. She already called me twice and sent 3 neurotic emails wanting to discuss how we can structure our work and share the office. My boss also said she never met a more structured and well organized therapist. Alarm bells are ringing like crazy. I hate these conscientious type of people that take their work seriously. Just do enough to keep appearances up and play the game, but don't make it your life. I never understood it. I sail the anxiety wave Every Monday wondering if shit hit the fan saturday and Monday LOL stealing office appliances and company property as well