I’m currently diagnosed as psychotic, which has some truth to it, but really I don’t see myself as a delusional person. I understand why I have this diagnosis, however I also know it is not correct. No psychiatrist knows me as well as you guys do. I am just about a week sober at the moment.
You've been foolish in the past landing you a criminal record.
In the US having a criminal record really seems to leave permanent damage to one's life. In turn it becomes a part of you.
Ex-cons can really get the short end of the stick, but considering his circumstances there he's doing fine. He's been able to hold this job for a while, has his own place to stay, eats regularly, has connections with other people in the area, he's mostly fine as long as he doesn't do something to screw up this situation.
I think if you weren't as self absorbed as you are, you'd then have other excuses to claim mental illness, as you'd be an emotional wreck. That being said you're more mentally healthy than you might think. It's just your foolish past set your life in motion. You don't always find yourself facing calamities.
I wouldn't say he's mentally healthy so much as he's surprisingly functional. There's definitely some deficiencies going on but only a few things in his life at the moment seem to be challenging those areas.
You have some talent but it's going to waste. Competition is stiff but still make a twitch channel for your gaming and send footage to youtube. Present yourself as an ex criminal and the best gamer and nothing more, let your viewers figure you out, and when the other hothots see you, they'll be the ones calling you out. Also be on screen at all times, it's really yourself you're selling.
Win or lose some of those streamers are making a decent living, if not they are accumulating a fortune.
I don't see that going very well for him imo, and the pay for being a streamer requires decent numbers to make bank over the time spent.
His current job's probably better for him, especially since he seems to enjoy some level of being 'unknowable' to people. If he were to make himself into more of a public spectacle he'd be having to deal with people correcting him over his claims of 'being the best' and all that.
They'd also inevitably link to his Kiwi page, which would steer a good amount of his traffic.
Forget the diagnosis and forget seeking a diagnosis. What's wrong is you're being wasted. Get rich, stay out of trouble, then you'll have an entirely different set problems, and you might be happier.
I'd argue that he's living a simple enough life that riches might be wasted on him. He accomplishes enough through having less, rather than needing to endlessly chase the idea of 'more' out of some misplaced sense of envy.
Even when he thinks he's the best at something he doesn't become some jealous monster when he sees otherwise, he just questions it's legitimacy. His jumping to conclusions over if he is or isn't the best is plainly over not having immediate comparisons to make.
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