Genuine question... what's it like to be this introspective?
I don't think I've spent more than 20 cumulative minutes self-analyzing the way you seem to do constantly lol (not saying my approach is preferable... just confused by yours)
it's the product of being a covert narcissist, droning on with novels about the most miniscule insignificant details of their mediocre lives. it's so incredibly dull and repetitive.