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AizenTheTitanic said: 

Normally, I would immediately find them and possibly beat them up severely. Or embarrass them in front of their friends, due to how I always considered provocations to deserve immediate punishment.

The punisher types are pretty easy to lead by the nose, they desire a sense of control over the situation from how the provocation gave them such unrest. 

On one hand someone can be all "Don't poke the bear", but on the other it's the classic "Carrot and Shtick". If the one slinging insults does not feel fear over the one they're insulting then they have all the power. 

Yet the thought kept burning me inside "I got to beat them up, I am the man, I am the shit" and so on and so on.

You've fed that voice for so long that it's become a part of you. 

Tell me, why is 'being a man' even so important? 

I believe that maybe, deep inside I wasn't trusting myself as much as I thought. Hence that lead into the need to constantly prove myself to myself by clashing with others.

When you really think about it, the only real difference between clashing and debating is a matter of poise. 

Today I looked at the note, laughed, pulled a pencil and draw a swastika on top of it and "euxaristw mwro mou" which means "thank you babe", completely unintentionally.

It's like I took off a severe burden off my shoulders, I don't feel like a pussy, in fact it makes me feel more manly. I don't really understand.

It's nice that you had a disconnection from your usual behavior, but that doesn't always mean it's just gone. Awareness of your cycles is just the first of many stepping stones when it comes to ascending our worldly tethers. 

I think real men, know when to fight and when to ignore and laugh it off. And till this point I was just a manchild.

When does it make more sense to fight rather than laugh? 

AizenTheTitanic said: 

I live in piraeus, it's a city that's pretty much politically divided into either far-right or anarchists. 

In the neighborhood I live at it's full of anarchists, drug dealers, potheads, club addicts. Or wealthy snobbish people.

 

After some events with gypsies/pakis and some leftists here, where I beat them or at made them submit. I started getting "notes" outside my home or my car that called me "fasista" which means fascist.

Additionally after 00:00 some of them would drive by fast and shout to me "psofa fasista" which means "die fascist" or other hateful comments.

I assume that the one who pulls that is one of my former buddies, we were pretty close till I came out as a far-right fascist and he told me that he is disappointed, so I told him "Don't worry you disappoint me too", the drama exploded cause I called his mixed girlfriend a prostitute "poutana" in greek.

Normally, I would immediately find them and possibly beat them up severely. Or embarrass them in front of their friends, due to how I always considered provocations to deserve immediate punishment.

Needless to say it's sheer ego that drives me, and they already prove they're afraid of a direct confrontation hence why they pull such hit and run tactics. Therefore there's nothing to prove.

Yet the thought kept burning me inside "I got to beat them up, I am the man, I am the shit" and so on and so on.

Such mindset is what lead me into having charges, and two courtooms, I would always lash out and get extreme and violent even at a mindless stare. From 14 years old till this very day.

I believe that maybe, deep inside I wasn't trusting myself as much as I thought. Hence that lead into the need to constantly prove myself to myself by clashing with others.

 

Today I looked at the note, laughed, pulled a pencil and draw a swastika on top of it and "euxaristw mwro mou" which means "thank you babe", completely unintentionally.

It's like I took off a severe burden off my shoulders, I don't feel like a pussy, in fact it makes me feel more manly. I don't really understand.

 

I think real men, know when to fight and when to ignore and laugh it off. And till this point I was just a manchild.

We will see, either way here's an update. 

 Leave the gypsies alone

Turncoat said: 

AizenTheTitanic said: 

Normally, I would immediately find them and possibly beat them up severely. Or embarrass them in front of their friends, due to how I always considered provocations to deserve immediate punishment.

The punisher types are pretty easy to lead by the nose, they desire a sense of control over the situation from how the provocation gave them such unrest. 

On one hand someone can be all "Don't poke the bear", but on the other it's the classic "Carrot and Shtick". If the one slinging insults does not feel fear over the one they're insulting then they have all the power. 

Yet the thought kept burning me inside "I got to beat them up, I am the man, I am the shit" and so on and so on.

You've fed that voice for so long that it's become a part of you. 

Tell me, why is 'being a man' even so important? 

I believe that maybe, deep inside I wasn't trusting myself as much as I thought. Hence that lead into the need to constantly prove myself to myself by clashing with others.

When you really think about it, the only real difference between clashing and debating is a matter of poise. 

Today I looked at the note, laughed, pulled a pencil and draw a swastika on top of it and "euxaristw mwro mou" which means "thank you babe", completely unintentionally.

It's like I took off a severe burden off my shoulders, I don't feel like a pussy, in fact it makes me feel more manly. I don't really understand.

It's nice that you had a disconnection from your usual behavior, but that doesn't always mean it's just gone. Awareness of your cycles is just the first of many stepping stones when it comes to ascending our worldly tethers. 

I think real men, know when to fight and when to ignore and laugh it off. And till this point I was just a manchild.

When does it make more sense to fight rather than laugh? 

 The punisher types are easy to deal with in internet, where you can hide behind the safety of texts/ larping/ trolling/ or where the physical threat doesn't exist.  I confronted the "don't poke the bear types" who want to be the "carrot and stick" many times, they always submitted and showed clear signs of fear.

I'm fairly certain if I find them too they will submit, if they don't, then they will simply end up in a hospital. And if assumingly I'm overpowered physically, which of course it is possible. They will still have to fight over it pretty hard. That's enough.

I'm sure there are arrogant/ignorant fools who feel like there's nothing to fear, however I doubt that you could just overlook a 6.2 big dude approaching at you with clear intentions to moop the floor with you. And types that provoke like that are usually what we call "talkers cause they can't be doers". Aka "pussies". 

If you can't understand what's wrong with not being a real man, then no amount of explanation from my side will convince you otherwise, you're terminally ill.

Now to be fair with your points, laughing it off as long as it's insignificant/ there's nothing to lose is certainly more mature and convenient than chasing the one holding the stick to shove the carrot in his ass. It's just that it's the first time I personally felt that.

I also doubt that's gone, I'm absolutely certain if I see one of them I will immediately attack on the spot. But for me who always behaved like that even laughing it off once is a big accomplishment, due to how I never did it before.

Admittedly however, feeding that voice is torturous in a way. Due to how you can never find peace, I guess your way offers that peace somehow.

__ said: 

AizenTheTitanic said: 

I live in piraeus, it's a city that's pretty much politically divided into either far-right or anarchists. 

In the neighborhood I live at it's full of anarchists, drug dealers, potheads, club addicts. Or wealthy snobbish people.

 

After some events with gypsies/pakis and some leftists here, where I beat them or at made them submit. I started getting "notes" outside my home or my car that called me "fasista" which means fascist.

Additionally after 00:00 some of them would drive by fast and shout to me "psofa fasista" which means "die fascist" or other hateful comments.

I assume that the one who pulls that is one of my former buddies, we were pretty close till I came out as a far-right fascist and he told me that he is disappointed, so I told him "Don't worry you disappoint me too", the drama exploded cause I called his mixed girlfriend a prostitute "poutana" in greek.

Normally, I would immediately find them and possibly beat them up severely. Or embarrass them in front of their friends, due to how I always considered provocations to deserve immediate punishment.

Needless to say it's sheer ego that drives me, and they already prove they're afraid of a direct confrontation hence why they pull such hit and run tactics. Therefore there's nothing to prove.

Yet the thought kept burning me inside "I got to beat them up, I am the man, I am the shit" and so on and so on.

Such mindset is what lead me into having charges, and two courtooms, I would always lash out and get extreme and violent even at a mindless stare. From 14 years old till this very day.

I believe that maybe, deep inside I wasn't trusting myself as much as I thought. Hence that lead into the need to constantly prove myself to myself by clashing with others.

 

Today I looked at the note, laughed, pulled a pencil and draw a swastika on top of it and "euxaristw mwro mou" which means "thank you babe", completely unintentionally.

It's like I took off a severe burden off my shoulders, I don't feel like a pussy, in fact it makes me feel more manly. I don't really understand.

 

I think real men, know when to fight and when to ignore and laugh it off. And till this point I was just a manchild.

We will see, either way here's an update. 

 Leave the gypsies alone

 Gypsies are non homosapien subhuman scum. They deserve every single vicious beating they get. They deserve to have there whole entire gypsy villages burnt down and killed off stop them spreading there shitty subhuman genes everywhere. Fucking niggers.

I just thought of something.

Instead of going ape mode and finding them to beat them up, I am going to write in a piece of paper "for my fans" add a heart <3 and a signature, write 10 like those, visit them when they got chicks besides them / their friends and go like:

"Given how you scream my name and think about me so much I decided to give you my autograph to show my appreciation"

And just start passing them around. Turn my back and leave with no beating/no aggressiveness/ no anger

Hehehehehehehe, I found the solution to clowning others without anger/ego, I am going to do it and report the results here.

AizenTheTitanic said: 

The punisher types are easy to deal with in internet, where you can hide behind the safety of texts/ larping/ trolling/ or where the physical threat doesn't exist. 

IRL has it's share of the same hang ups, such as having witnesses or friends with you if the situation's dicey. 

I've found more luck in presenting a nonthreatening posture personally though, which accompanied by the idea of how it's stronger to show your feelings tends to have them tell me a surprising number of things they'd normally not feel comfortable talking about. By looking like I don't need to be the toughest guy in the room they let their guard down. 

If you can't understand what's wrong with not being a real man, then no amount of explanation from my side will convince you otherwise, you're terminally ill.

I've also found far more success in my life since dropping the concern. I used to care about that shit from a ton of people trying to push the "be a man" narrative, but every step of that rhetoric was just me trying to put on an act for the sake of others. 

Others seem to find the lack of posturing comforting too. The whole idea of "Being a Man" is a social poison that stops many people from being able to just chill. I've found more comfort and pride in being myself instead, and following that has come an increased sense of peace with my situations. 

I also doubt that's gone, I'm absolutely certain if I see one of them I will immediately attack on the spot. But for me who always behaved like that even laughing it off once is a big accomplishment, due to how I never did it before.

Just make sure to hold onto it, patterns in behavior take around three weeks of straight repetition to start to passively adopt. 

Admittedly however, feeding that voice is torturous in a way. Due to how you can never find peace, I guess your way offers that peace somehow.

I've seen that our moods are infectious as a matter of transference. If you can be chill, typically so can they, especially if they're used to posturing and otherwise find it exhausting. It's taken as an Oasis from the bullshit that people tell themselves they have to be when they see another not bothering with those concerns. 

I can usually say the same sorts of things to someone that I'd say on here without getting hit based on my IRL presentation and environment. Most people don't want to deal with the ramifications that follow violence, and through one means or another they tend to passively understand that I'd probably enjoy the pain based on how I emote if they start making threats. 

AizenTheTitanic said: 

I just thought of something.

Instead of going ape mode and finding them to beat them up, I am going to write in a piece of paper "for my fans" add a heart <3 and a signature, write 10 like those

You're going to pull a Johnny Cage? 

Heheheheheheheheheh.