I dream about being a serial killer. There are times when I feel such deep longing to rip a person open and feel their insides. Sometimes when I masturbate I think about slaughtering a family, my hands would still be red and dripping with their blood. I'd feel such excitement from watch their body go still as I take their life.
Sometimes it gets too much and I have to run away from home for little bit. One night stands staves off the desire but I am trying the whole relationship thing so the bloodlust has returned.
I need a distraction. đ«
