When I see children, what I see is a tool that can help humanity and the world if molded in just the right way and increase happiness for themselves and others. I see potential positive energy for the universe- and old the belief that all children should be taken to their full potential. In a way, the way I see children is almost robotic.
Children make me happier than anything else, and I even felt sad when the work day was over. In the past at daycares I was praised for my talent with children and the ability to teach them and improve their lives-
I feel emotional connections with children, and I don't talk to them like they are idiots, but the intelligent and constantly learning bright and unique individuals they are.
But I have never seen a child and felt they were cute.
I have no desire to squeeze them, or coddle them. I only desire to teach them and guide them. It is unusual that I lack this basic instinctual feeling, of seeing a child as cute
I do hug children, but the hugging is a tool of expression, comfort, and other things, rather than an impulse.
I have severe anger, hatred, and sadism for anything or anyone that threatens a child's development.
I am also this way with animals and anything seemingly helpless, I want it to grow to be strong and independent, but I have no "awwwwwww!" Reaction.
For example, when babyGroot was young and helpess in the movie, I kept fantasizing that he would grow powerful and independent. But there was no- "I must squeeze him he is so cute!"
Is this a problem?
