Today I saw a man looking troubled, leaning against an entrace to an underground cellar that was emanating light. I was mildly curious because he seemed troubled and was breathing heavily, looking down. I was going to pass him by and I was distracted by something, so I looked away. When I looked back, there was nothing there. I was flabbergasted, I have no idea how the fuck that could've happened.
I saw the man and the cellar clear as day, I was not high, I wasn't drunk or drugged, and I didn't feel disoriented at all, I feel much like now. When I'm drunk, I realize later on how fucked I was, but that didn't happen this time. Like I have a perfectly clear, undistracted, focused mind. Have you ever had an experience like that?
I was half-convinced I'm in the matrix, and I went to look and touch all over the wall that was now replacing the entrance to the cellar, it had been maybe 5-10 meters away. Next to the wall, I could see a small metal box where they probably do some phone wiring and shit I dont know, and I saw an ad there for this website with restaurants. I've been scrolling that website with my phone like a maniac looking for hidden signs of the matrix. I was thinking of calling them to look for answers, but then I thought maybe not.
You know, I keep thinking, what if there's even a percentage chance that what I saw was real and another percentage chance that I could find out something by searching for it, I should probably do it, shouldn't I? Throughout the rest of my journey home I felt a sense of paranoia, like I was being watched, and I started paying attention to every detail, I took detours after detour, feeling like I was being "lead" somewhere. But nothing happened.
tl;dr, I'm Neo, or crazy.
Have you ever experienced something similar, and did you think there was anything to it? I feel like my life is empty and my paranoia gives meaning to my otherwise nihilistic, hopeless pursuit of love and Aizen's approval.
