sorry
but thinking that I shouldnt deserve Jesus when first of all He freaking set it up so I had a clear no other choice but to accept his offer of forgiveness and renunciation of pagan spirituality and witchcraft or face my impending doom, is not exactly fair
like it's the same as if, idk there is no great example, but if angels could be forgiven and satan was put into an angelic physical body and Jesus forced him to be exposed for who he was and then he accepted Jesus's forgiveness and repented. how can you be mad over something like that