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After much consideration, I will again attempt to leave this place.

I had some time to introspect, and I've come to the conclusion that I'm too invested in this forum, and that it is not good for my psyche. I would like to expand my mind, experience new things, and be a part of something greater than just myself, and this forum is hindering me at least partially from doing that.

I don't like myself on this forum, and I feel like all my achievements here are driving me further from the goals I want to achieve IRL. I want to be loved and love others, but here I feel like I enjoy others' misery. I feel like I come here for short bursts of happy chemicals that are boosted by my forcing to act contrary to my default personality. I guess I'm afraid of being boring as I am, and seek validation from you all in a safe environment where nothing can hurt me.

I spent much time trying to weave this major major personality, which is nothing like me, and I think I kept it up for, like, a year, just because I wanted to see where it went. That `nobody` person was me pretending to be a girl (the vocaroos were text-to-speech generated with IBM's Emily voice) in an attempt to get to Inquirer.  I don't think this is very healthy behavior, and I should probably stop.

Writing this all out makes me feel somewhat guilty, but simultaneously I feel this malicious joy that I think I really shouldn't be feeling, and I'm afraid that this forum feeds that side of me. So I will leave. I will spend time with my wife, and free the time I spend on this forum for other things. I spend an extraordinarily large chunk of my free time here, and I'm ashamed of it. I'm also ashamed of how long I have stayed here.

Well, bye. If I come back, please ignore me to discourage me from coming here.

Thanks.

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After much consideration, I will again attempt to leave this place.

I had some time to introspect, and I've come to the conclusion that I'm too invested in this forum, and that it is not good for my psyche. I would like to expand my mind, experience new things, and be a part of something greater than just myself, and this forum is hindering me at least partially from doing that.

I don't like myself on this forum, and I feel like all my achievements here are driving me further from the goals I want to achieve IRL. I want to be loved and love others, but here I feel like I enjoy others' misery. I feel like I come here for short bursts of happy chemicals that are boosted by my forcing to act contrary to my default personality. I guess I'm afraid of being boring as I am, and seek validation from you all in a safe environment where nothing can hurt me.

I spent much time trying to weave this major major personality, which is nothing like me, and I think I kept it up for, like, a year, just because I wanted to see where it went. That `nobody` person was me pretending to be a girl (the vocaroos were text-to-speech generated with IBM's Emily voice) in an attempt to get to Inquirer.  I don't think this is very healthy behavior, and I should probably stop.

Writing this all out makes me feel somewhat guilty, but simultaneously I feel this malicious joy that I think I really shouldn't be feeling, and I'm afraid that this forum feeds that side of me. So I will leave. I will spend time with my wife, and free the time I spend on this forum for other things. I spend an extraordinarily large chunk of my free time here, and I'm ashamed of it. I'm also ashamed of how long I have stayed here.

Well, bye. If I come back, please ignore me to discourage me from coming here.

Thanks.

 take care, bb
xoxo

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Weak.

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Do what you need to do man. There isn't any shame attributed. Take care

visceral normality
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Likely wasn't even the real Legga anyway. 

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it takes absolute dedication and no life to uphold a puppet for a long period of time. they finally grew bored of it.

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ddddddd said: 

it takes absolute dedication and no life to uphold a puppet for a long period of time. they finally grew bored of it.

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Still takes dedication. Don't care who it is or isn't.

visceral normality
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cx3 said: 

Still takes dedication. Don't care who it is or isn't.

It's only a little over a month old. 

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ddddddd said: 

it takes absolute dedication and no life to uphold a puppet for a long period of time. they finally grew bored of it.

 No more than it takes to visit this shithole under a main.

Ofc, that would depend on whether the puppet is a joke, or smthg the puppet master is using to tryta impress ppl, and how dependent the person is on the puppet for w/e weird validation they think they need.

I've had dozens of puppets and I made them all for the lulz, not to tryta convince ppl I'm a doctor or some shit  :D

And I still have a life off the internet. But that's why idgaf what kind of stories a bunch of losers on some forum  want to make up about me.

Ez pz lemon squeezey  :D

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