Usually I don't like making threads about anyone unless it is to bait him then clown him however.
You and cade seem to be the oldest people here.
Both of you have a pessimistic/nihilistic view about life, based on the fact that we "will all become worms".
You seem addicted to alcohol, however you both have some critical standards about people judging by how you shat on savima/jim based on their personalities. Which implies, you have a clear criteria about people, events, and situations.
Regardless to the accuracy of your ideologies, there is something you need to know.
Well if you got standards, you're not nihilistic.
If you instinctively value/devalue something that means that you have some sort of judgment that you in fact impose on others verbally.
So without trying to throw shade here and be a douchebag. With all the due (not respect but mercy)
I believe that you are two broken failures who cope with their inability to fix their lives by using the usual motto of nihilists "nothing matters".
In addition to that, you over use alcohol and drugs which impair any type of cognitive function even further.
My advice to you for now is, try to understand your emotions instead of shutting them off repeatedly or avoiding them.
Between regret and self pity, regret is certainly better.
- Aizen