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Attention whore receiving attention.

 because those things usually come from a loss of self control or otherwise a place of weakness from people and getting someone to be angry at you makes you feel like you have control over them

basically you have slightly sadistic tendencies and there's not much wrong with that, lotsa people I think have them 

You have the opinion that people in general are sheep, and furthermore that you are exceptional in terms of things like thinking out of the box. You generally have a dismissive view of others. So if you truly believe others are misguided, their criticisms become affirmation of what you think.

The byproduct of years of paranoia post-rational?

Your rogue's gallery from them confirming your thoughts seems to grant you a dismissive amount of comfort when compared to those who aren't as clearly anti-you, which tends to be the case more for people who were expecting the failure from the start. By finding ways to blame the critics instead, your own sense of self feels less under fire, something I've seen for a long time from people like Artists who invested a little too much of themselves into their work. By finding ways of cutting them off before they could cut you off, or striking vengeance that hits them harder than you perceived them to have hit you, it can grant a feeling of control and victory... but that feeling likely roots from how that feeling was not there as strongly prior to it. 

I mean, when did this sort of mindset kick in? Was it always like this? This behavior strikes me as learned more than where your tendencies began. 

Cawk said:

There's 3 groups of users currently:

1. Those who bear with me.

2. Those who try not to get involved with me.

3. Those who despise me.

The above gave me the impression of a socially defeatist mindset, a person who expects failure from the start. It negates that any group would like you being around. When failure is expected, turning it into "success" of a form tends to be where many take it. I'd also figure you want to stand out and be remembered, which gives me the impression that you earlier on did not get that supply as easily as you'd like and otherwise resulted in you trying to become a louder personality to compensate for the hunger. 

This has me think it's not just some sort of Humiliation or Infamy Fetish or something corkscrewed along those lines but instead is purely over how you can enjoy or appreciate a person who grants you some time under their wing; you have individual exceptions to the rule based on if they can give you that specific form of supply instead of hating "humanity" universally. Figures like Crave being a target for that phenomenon shows that you didn't pick who you were following purely for an apprenticeship, either, but for the 1-on-1 positive supply that does something for you. 

It's like you're naturally a follower who enjoys punishing people for not living up to your standards in one way or another, but if your standards are not just met, but impress upon you, that punishment tendency it'd otherwise be can become a fugue state of adoration you wake up from later seemingly a little confused over. 

I don't really "know you like that", but as guesswork this is how it seems. 

You have low self esteem cawk chan, I like you lots

you give too much fucks

Turncoat said: 

The byproduct of years of paranoia post-rational?

Possibly.

Your rogue's gallery from them confirming your thoughts seems to grant you a dismissive amount of comfort when compared to those who aren't as clearly anti-you, which tends to be the case more for people who were expecting the failure from the start. By finding ways to blame the critics instead, your own sense of self feels less under fire, something I've seen for a long time from people like Artists who invested a little too much of themselves into their work. By finding ways of cutting them off before they could cut you off, or striking vengeance that hits them harder than you perceived them to have hit you, it can grant a feeling of control and victory... but that feeling likely roots from how that feeling was not there as strongly prior to it. 

I don't go by the "I'll fuck them over before they might fuck me over" mentality at all. It's one kind of insecurity I don't have.

I mean, when did this sort of mindset kick in? Was it always like this? This behavior strikes me as learned more than where your tendencies began. 

It's definitely learned, I've been like this for years now, I do know it wasn't there from the start though.

Cawk said:

There's 3 groups of users currently:

1. Those who bear with me.

2. Those who try not to get involved with me.

3. Those who despise me.

The above gave me the impression of a socially defeatist mindset, a person who expects failure from the start. It negates that any group would like you being around. When failure is expected, turning it into "success" of a form tends to be where many take it. I'd also figure you want to stand out and be remembered, which gives me the impression that you earlier on did not get that supply as easily as you'd like and otherwise resulted in you trying to become a louder personality to compensate for the hunger. 

This has me think it's not just some sort of Humiliation or Infamy Fetish or something corkscrewed along those lines but instead is purely over how you can enjoy or appreciate a person who grants you some time under their wing; you have individual exceptions to the rule based on if they can give you that specific form of supply instead of hating "humanity" universally.

I appreciate good people.

The infamy fetish is the biggest factor I'd say.

It's just having everyone like me does nothing for me personally. Due to my immoral core, people tend to dislike me right off the bat when I'm being real anyway.

I thoroughly enjoy the aspect of enemies as well. For example, I would never accept Sucker's or Eduard's efforts to make up with me. People I don't have enough common interests with, I weed out and purposefully convert into enemies as I deem them to be useless in a neutral state.

I was quick to jump Alena, while I did not retaliate against Crave at all, despite Crave royally fucking me over (I have her dox and all and she has nothing on me).

Despite Crave's efforts and intentions, Crave did not achieve enough reason for me to retaliate against her. While Alena's nature of selling out people to Sugar was enough for me to punish her. In other words, if Alena wasn't an extension of Sugar, I wouldn't have killed her account and even became friends with her.

I exposed Alena's true nature along with it. She logged into her other account I haven't deleted DM history of and reminded me that I didn't, thinking it'd hurt me if she posted them. She definitely shared the logs with Sucker, I know it because she literally played pacifist to negotiate peace between me and Sucker which Sucker agreed on. I blew up the deal intentionally.

Figures like Crave being a target for that phenomenon shows that you didn't pick who you were following purely for an apprenticeship, either, but for the 1-on-1 positive supply that does something for you.

I'm aware that was just 1 year ago, but I've changed A LOT. I've become much better in acquiring supply from the public, I don't rely on 1 on 1 supply anymore. 1 on 1 supply is not even an option for me anymore.

Back then I needed others, now I don't.

It's like you're naturally a follower who enjoys punishing people for not living up to your standards in one way or another, but if your standards are not just met, but impress upon you, that punishment tendency it'd otherwise be can become a fugue state of adoration you wake up from later seemingly a little confused over. 

I don't really "know you like that", but as guesswork this is how it seems. 

 I can be leader, collaborator or follower. I'm willing to be a follower without question for people who've earned my respect in one way or another. Things such as being more skilled than I am in something I have huge interest in, or even simple consistent kindness work on me.