You just hunger for dick, why dress it up like it's something classier? If you're a dick hungry slut, just own up to it, make it your own.
Lmfao.
99% percent of this forum is a depressed mess on the verge of suicide. Think about that before you listen to their advice.
Who's the 1%?
Luna and SpatialMind. Who do you think?
I've read Luna typing out suicidal contemplations and Spatial's only defense against it is his own narcy ignorance.
Starting to seem like 100%.
Dude, I’m done with him. He isn’t into me, I’m not going to keep wasting time and energy.
LOL
He is the only reason I need to go to therapy.
Are you saying Tryp drove you nuts enough to need to seek a therapist? 😏
I don’t care how messed up I am. I can always Kill myself is I really want to give up.
No you can't, suicide's hard.
If it were so easy you'd already be dead, but nah you're probably going to do the 'because I failed, I must not have really wanted it' cope.I already almost moved on from him then he decided to lead me on.
He did?
Luckily, I never believed it would work out, even with the feelings I have for him.
Bullshit, we can quote you to kingdom come over this one.
Just more coping, how pitiful.I rather remain an unfeeling and uncaring person until I am okay with being without a guy.
That's not who you are though.
Otherwise, they will have too much power over me, like this dude.
You want them to have power over you, hence you calling Chapo dumb over not taking your hints on how to more easily control you.
You have no idea what you want and contradict yourself constantly. If you had a clone you two'd be accuracy-arguing until the day one of you dies of suffocation from over explaining, or a blow to the head, from the other one.I refrained from tasting Chapo all because I wanted to save something for Trypt that’s only for him.
...all the while trying to organize fucking C4 again, as well as BohemianRhapsody.
You're the opposite of loyal you hoe.Honestly, I’ve never been more disappointed life, but I’ll get over it.
Yes you have, did you just forget how crazy you were acting when you were with Jim?
If you're so confident that you'll get over it, then it's far from the worst you've gone through unless you've never faced real strife.Luckily, it’s been a while since we saw each other, so I was able to get rid of the memories that have feelings attached. Now I’m just living the life I knew I would end up with.
Yet you still ruminate on it, just like you do over Jim and your other dicks in the timeline.
You just hunger for dick, why dress it up like it's something classier? If you're a dick hungry slut, just own up to it, make it your own.
I like this. I will make it surface 😁 Best thing TC has ever written.
Someone said there are things about myself that I don’t know or something, like holes in my understanding, which is accurate, but not in the ways that are implied by the idea of not knowing, but I can say I don’t get myself totally, but you people need to tell me things about myself that I don’t know or you think I miss when I discuss my issues.
i don't think you percieve the world or feel things in the same way as the rest of us
its difficult to describe, but i'd liken it to the uncanny valley. you're almost a person but there's something that just feels off and this provokes an uncomfortable feeling. i got this feeling in person too
somethings not there but i don't know what, AI robot vibes
c4 is onto something here.
We've had many conversations in person, but one that sticks out for me particularly is when we talked about what you value in relationships. You placed primary focus on how a person appears, and a secondary focus on intelligence. And don't get me wrong, physical attraction in probably important to anyone. But to me (and I think most people), what matters most is the chemistry and dynamics you and another person have. Your dialogue seemed to be either devoid of an awareness of that, or having no conception of it.
This ties into other things you've said in the past. Things reaching back such as "I want someone to get married with" which led to wanton relationships that failed. Or having a backup plan of marrying a disabled vet, because he could help you politically if you got into that. It seems to show a lack of appreciation that you will end up spending a vast majority of your waking time being around this person. You're so focused on "getting something" and not really focused on what having that would feel like in the end.
Update on my response to this. I can live with anyone and I love anyone. I will hate them less if they look good.
I know CS doesn't want to talk to me but, just adding my own irrelevant side thought while reading this thread.
Completely going out on a limb here, a lot of people throw suggestions what causes you to be the way you are, but, I wonder if there was a high degree of emotional and physical neglect in very early childhood that caused, perhaps an attachment disorder of some kind of just, stunting in certain areas.
Like, if during the crucial developmental windows, there isn't proper nurturing and bonding with, a human, ideally the mother, then... it causes, developmental delays. Neglect and maltreatment can cause a whole slew of life long deficits.
It's really fascinating when you research more into all about it. Developmental psychology and the affects of neglect, abuse, isolation, etc.
And also, attachment disorders.
Could also be, later affect of neglect, abuse, trauma, or other unhealthy dysfunctional aspects in your life at any point that maybe affected you more than you know or realize. Not just early childhood. Trauma (bullying, SA, CSA, etc) and dysfunctional families (so many different examples of what constitutes a dysfunctional family dynamic) can really, have quite the impact.
It's okay if none of this lines up for you, but, just one perspective of many plausible explanations. Regardless, still interesting to read about.
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"There's extensive testimony from the psychologist who evaluated Recardo Jr. and he said that something that is present in his personality now, is that he does not value his own entertainment or growth. The psychologist says that he doesn't ask for anything, he doesn't think about anything else anyone else is thinking.
This is dangerous for him as he will be highly vulnerable to exploitation as his life progresses. The psychologist says that he will just go along with whatever anyone tells him and he will never question anything."
"I don't know if he will ever recover from that abuse [...] or if the other children will ever recognize what their parents did to them all."
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The highlighted red is just one example of the profoundly complex affect that childhood emotional and otherwise neglect, and or isolation and abuse, emotional and psychological abuse, etc, can have on a human being, and their cognitive processes as a whole.
The highlighted red portion is a big red flag and commonly known marker of severe developmental delay caused by early or latter childhood neglect and abuse, a long with a lack of eye contact or even becoming fussy and refusing physical touch, or lacking interaction normal movement and 'play'
this is just one aspect, emotional neglect.
of the many involved aspects that could be at play affecting you psychologically. It's sort of a cliche freudian approach but, I would consider looking at your relationships in early childhood first, with a psychotherapist or highly trained experienced psychiatrist, in trauma.
Not just 'any' therapist. But yeah, if you really want to know the answers, to why you're so 'the way you are', I would ask a professional to essentially just psychoanalyze you, and they may be able to offer some insight and probably help you in any areas you're finding yourself hung up or apprehended.
Attachment is another aspect.
