God's also the one who's bestowed this gender confusion and the choice of what to do about it within a setting of his own design.
He is to blame for my actions.I don't think so.
God created you but He gave you free will.
I concur.
I could not read this. It it’s way too long. Please summarize.
Do his words hurt you so much that you have to block his words out to cope? Narcissists are so weak and fragile.
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I could not read this. It it’s way too long. Please summarize.
Do his words hurt you so much that you have to block his words out to cope? Narcissists are so weak and fragile.
Did you see how long that is? I am high and I’m not wasting my time reading so of that. It old take forever. I can barely remember two sentences at a time, so it would be impossible for me to understand right now anyway.
I got bored so I had to find another guy before I ditched him
, so I had to cheat,
That's super shitty tbh.
but I told him about it before I did it and he said it was okay because I told him I needed to make sure I really liked him. Then I told him it was over,
Poor guy.
That’s not evil. It was all above board and approved by him.
Nah man there's layers of sin in all of this.
Says the gender confused person.
What does that have to do with being a shitty person who does shitty things to other people while sinning left and right?
Seems irrelevant tbh, like you're grasping at straws for a dig so that you won't have to focus on your own faults.Sin is everywhere.
You'll never make it into Heaven with that attitude.
I wasn’t that nice back in the day. I know that. God forgave me.
Ahh, you ascribe to one of the Christian faiths where simply admitting to fault is enough for forgiveness?
The issue with this method is that you have to really mean it.I do mean it
No you don't, you just feel bad and want to be absolved of it. You then do things of equal if not greater heinousness, showing you aren't learning anything from it at all.
Saying 'sorry' is empty if you're just doing it as lip service, like when five year olds are browbeaten into it.and I was saying you can’t talk about sin because you’re altering the very thing God have you to use as a vessel for your soul.
I am committing significantly less sin than you are, if you wish to make this into a contest. Your path is beyond sacrilegious at this point, an insult to the brand name, while I at least don't tarnish it beyond having some issues with the rhetoric itself.
I personally find a conscientious objector to be less of a threat towards any faith when compared to someone following it incorrectly.God said you are a guy, a girl, or a hermaphrodite. You don’t get to choose which you want to be.
God's also the one who's bestowed this gender confusion and the choice of what to do about it within a setting of his own design.
He is to blame for my actions.That’s a major sin.
You can argue that my path is sinful, but it's at least self-contained and misguided plainly. Your sin spreads onto others like a disease, like a wildfire, and it's far more misguided as a misbranded label than my choosing to not ascribe to the title at all.
You're effectively a sham, a charlatan, and the only one it's fooling is you.Being mean to people is not as bad, in my opinion,
There's significantly more passages against your behaviors than mine, and 'being mean to people' is a hell of an understatement when it comes to your life of sin and debauchery, even when it comes to your boasts.
The issue here is that this isn't over your opinion, but rather God's.but God says all sins are equally bad and my sins here are in the past. Yours will be forever.
I mean technically I haven't even undergone HRT yet, so I haven't aimed to 'change my form', meaning these are sins of the future at worst.
Your sins will be with you forever, regardless of if you play ignorant towards them or not, as you have not truly asked to be absolved of it, but rather for a resolution so that you can drop feeling like shit over your own misdeeds.
You use forgiveness as a bandage, when really forgiveness is about your intent. God will know if you truly are or aren't sorry, and repeated misdeeds only further how sorry you really aren't.
When you ask for forgiveness, you're supposed to then stop doing the sinful deeds. When it comes to matters of God, I am more of an accurate and pious worshipper as an atheist than you are as a card carrying follower, and that should be concerning to you.
The manipulativeness and sadism part is not unfamiliar around here, but I am more intrigued by her need to rationalize her actions using religion and copes like "I was allowed to cheat", it's like she wants to be evil and do as she wishes freely, but her self-image and psyche are so fragile that she cannot just go on about being evil without justifying and denying everything and say "yeah I am doing these things and I am evil, so what?". She has to convince herself she is a good person and what she did was right, because she cannot live with the reality of what she is as a person, she has no freedom to be who she wants to be because she is not strong enough to deal with the shame and guilt.
This makes me think that she is not naturally manipulative or cruel, but is acting out of trauma and past hurts in an attempt to deny to herself how weak and powerless she is, almost like in that movie with the lesbian prostitute who kills her clients because she was molested as a child by her stepfather or something.
This in contrast with someone like Ted Bundy for example, who had a good loving home, but still went out to hurt people for the pleasure of it. CS does all these because she knows how weak and vulnerable she is, and the moments of control over others feelings helps her deny that she is an easy target for a time being.
She was too weak and powerless to fight off her rapists, but she is strong enough to hurt people emotionally, so she can say she has some strength.
It's an interesting mixture of weakness / powerlessness and fragility. Let us know when you lose it and your murder spree starts CS.
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I could not read this. It it’s way too long. Please summarize.
Do his words hurt you so much that you have to block his words out to cope? Narcissists are so weak and fragile.
Did you see how long that is? I am high and I’m not wasting my time reading so of that. It old take forever. I can barely remember two sentences at a time, so it would be impossible for me to understand right now anyway.
Must suck having to be constantly high to deal with the reality of your life and mental disorder. Hope things get better for you.
No you don't, you just feel bad and want to be absolved of it. You then do things of equal if not greater heinousness, showing you aren't learning anything from it at all.
Saying 'sorry' is empty if you're just doing it as lip service, like when five year olds are browbeaten into it.and I was saying you can’t talk about sin because you’re altering the very thing God have you to use as a vessel for your soul.
I am committing significantly less sin than you are, if you wish to make this into a contest. Your path is beyond sacrilegious at this point, an insult to the brand name, while I at least don't tarnish it beyond having some issues with the rhetoric itself.
I personally find a conscientious objector to be less of a threat towards any faith when compared to someone following it incorrectly.God said you are a guy, a girl, or a hermaphrodite. You don’t get to choose which you want to be.
God's also the one who's bestowed this gender confusion and the choice of what to do about it within a setting of his own design.
He is to blame for my actions.That’s a major sin.
You can argue that my path is sinful, but it's at least self-contained and misguided plainly. Your sin spreads onto others like a disease, like a wildfire, and it's far more misguided as a misbranded label than my choosing to not ascribe to the title at all.
You're effectively a sham, a charlatan, and the only one it's fooling is you.Being mean to people is not as bad, in my opinion,
There's significantly more passages against your behaviors than mine, and 'being mean to people' is a hell of an understatement when it comes to your life of sin and debauchery, even when it comes to your boasts.
The issue here is that this isn't over your opinion, but rather God's.but God says all sins are equally bad and my sins here are in the past. Yours will be forever.
I mean technically I haven't even undergone HRT yet, so I haven't aimed to 'change my form', meaning these are sins of the future at worst.
Your sins will be with you forever, regardless of if you play ignorant towards them or not, as you have not truly asked to be absolved of it, but rather for a resolution so that you can drop feeling like shit over your own misdeeds.
You use forgiveness as a bandage, when really forgiveness is about your intent. God will know if you truly are or aren't sorry, and repeated misdeeds only further how sorry you really aren't.
When you ask for forgiveness, you're supposed to then stop doing the sinful deeds. When it comes to matters of God, I am more of an accurate and pious worshipper as an atheist than you are as a card carrying follower, and that should be concerning to you.
When you're at the pearly gates, where Saint Peter will read you your sins before casting you to the coals, I expect that reading to take hours if not days (that is assuming that it's that model and not the more accurate one over Earth being converted into the second Eden after The Rapture, when all are brought back to life to answer for their actions with only 144,000 making it to Heaven at all as military generals for the ground troops versus Satan).The manipulativeness and sadism part is not unfamiliar around here, but I am more intrigued by her need to rationalize her actions using religion and copes like "I was allowed to cheat", it's like she wants to be evil and do as she wishes freely, but her self-image and psyche are so fragile that she cannot just go on about being evil without justifying and denying everything and say "yeah I am doing these things and I am evil, so what?". She has to convince herself she is a good person and what she did was right, because she cannot live with the reality of what she is as a person, she has no freedom to be who she wants to be because she is not strong enough to deal with the shame and guilt.
This makes me think that she is not naturally manipulative or cruel, but is acting out of trauma and past hurts in an attempt to deny to herself how weak and powerless she is, almost like in that movie with the lesbian prostitute who kills her clients because she was molested as a child by her stepfather or something.
This in contrast with someone like Ted Bundy for example, who had a good loving home, but still went out to hurt people for the pleasure of it. CS does all these because she knows how weak and vulnerable she is, and the moments of control over others feelings helps her deny that she is an easy target for a time being.
It's an interesting mixture of weakness / powerlessness and fragility. Let us know when you lose it and your murder spree starts CS.
Hmmm... very astute. You’re so smart. This is totally me. It hits on my main issue with myself. I’m wondering if I’m actually evil, or if I just want to be so I feel strong. I know that being raped isn’t what turned me evil because I used to be evil or at least sad, unconnected, and felt trapped. I’m not sure if my other evil stuff was there from birth or after the rape. In essence, I’m not sure who I am. It’s like there’s two sides on me. Almost perfectly represented by the type of life I could have with either Trypt or Chapo. Peaceful and charitable, or evil and murderous. I really don’t know which one I was born similar to, but I know I choose good and God now, and Trypt.
No you don't, you just feel bad and want to be absolved of it. You then do things of equal if not greater heinousness, showing you aren't learning anything from it at all.
Saying 'sorry' is empty if you're just doing it as lip service, like when five year olds are browbeaten into it.and I was saying you can’t talk about sin because you’re altering the very thing God have you to use as a vessel for your soul.
I am committing significantly less sin than you are, if you wish to make this into a contest. Your path is beyond sacrilegious at this point, an insult to the brand name, while I at least don't tarnish it beyond having some issues with the rhetoric itself.
I personally find a conscientious objector to be less of a threat towards any faith when compared to someone following it incorrectly.God said you are a guy, a girl, or a hermaphrodite. You don’t get to choose which you want to be.
God's also the one who's bestowed this gender confusion and the choice of what to do about it within a setting of his own design.
He is to blame for my actions.That’s a major sin.
You can argue that my path is sinful, but it's at least self-contained and misguided plainly. Your sin spreads onto others like a disease, like a wildfire, and it's far more misguided as a misbranded label than my choosing to not ascribe to the title at all.
You're effectively a sham, a charlatan, and the only one it's fooling is you.Being mean to people is not as bad, in my opinion,
There's significantly more passages against your behaviors than mine, and 'being mean to people' is a hell of an understatement when it comes to your life of sin and debauchery, even when it comes to your boasts.
The issue here is that this isn't over your opinion, but rather God's.but God says all sins are equally bad and my sins here are in the past. Yours will be forever.
I mean technically I haven't even undergone HRT yet, so I haven't aimed to 'change my form', meaning these are sins of the future at worst.
Your sins will be with you forever, regardless of if you play ignorant towards them or not, as you have not truly asked to be absolved of it, but rather for a resolution so that you can drop feeling like shit over your own misdeeds.
You use forgiveness as a bandage, when really forgiveness is about your intent. God will know if you truly are or aren't sorry, and repeated misdeeds only further how sorry you really aren't.
When you ask for forgiveness, you're supposed to then stop doing the sinful deeds. When it comes to matters of God, I am more of an accurate and pious worshipper as an atheist than you are as a card carrying follower, and that should be concerning to you.
When you're at the pearly gates, where Saint Peter will read you your sins before casting you to the coals, I expect that reading to take hours if not days (that is assuming that it's that model and not the more accurate one over Earth being converted into the second Eden after The Rapture, when all are brought back to life to answer for their actions with only 144,000 making it to Heaven at all as military generals for the ground troops versus Satan).The manipulativeness and sadism part is not unfamiliar around here, but I am more intrigued by her need to rationalize her actions using religion and copes like "I was allowed to cheat", it's like she wants to be evil and do as she wishes freely, but her self-image and psyche are so fragile that she cannot just go on about being evil without justifying and denying everything and say "yeah I am doing these things and I am evil, so what?". She has to convince herself she is a good person and what she did was right, because she cannot live with the reality of what she is as a person, she has no freedom to be who she wants to be because she is not strong enough to deal with the shame and guilt.
This makes me think that she is not naturally manipulative or cruel, but is acting out of trauma and past hurts in an attempt to deny to herself how weak and powerless she is, almost like in that movie with the lesbian prostitute who kills her clients because she was molested as a child by her stepfather or something.
This in contrast with someone like Ted Bundy for example, who had a good loving home, but still went out to hurt people for the pleasure of it. CS does all these because she knows how weak and vulnerable she is, and the moments of control over others feelings helps her deny that she is an easy target for a time being.
It's an interesting mixture of weakness / powerlessness and fragility. Let us know when you lose it and your murder spree starts CS.
Hmmm... very astute. You’re so smart. This is totally me. It hits on my main issue with myself. I’m wondering if I’m actually evil, or if I just want to be so I feel strong. I know that being raped isn’t what turned me evil because I used to be evil or at least sad, unconnected, and felt trapped.
I would say it's a mix of entitlement from being spoiled, combined with facing the real world where you need social skills and charm to control people to make them give you what you want, then hatred and anger over them not treating you as special because you lack those social skills and conventional attractiveness (white skin, symmetric face etc), wanting to punish them for not loving you and doing what you want like you feel you deserve.
I’m not sure if my other evil stuff was there from birth or after the rape. In essence, I’m not sure who I am. It’s like there’s two sides on me.
I think you change based on how you feel. When you feel hurt and like people are not giving you want, the world is not treating you the way you want, for ex when guys use you and throw you away because they think you are too annoying to be around, you become murderous and evil, spiral into drugs and sadistic fantasies, spiral
When you feel appreciated and loved, you become nice and act like a Saint, because now you can play the role of a perfect and good person, and someone is around to feed that fantasy
I would classify this as BPD tendencies as you have a very intense need to be loved and appreciated, and you literally turn into a demon when you don't get this, or angel when you get it.
Almost perfectly represented by the type of life I could have with either Trypt or Chapo. Peaceful and charitable, or evil and murderous. I really don’t know which one I was born similar to, but I know I choose good and God now, and Trypt.
At this point I would go with God, as Tryp did not choose you (he chose Blanc), and Chapo sees you as a mistress. You could become a nun.
I could not read this. It it’s way too long. Please summarize.
Do his words hurt you so much that you have to block his words out to cope? Narcissists are so weak and fragile.
Very true and yet they reveal themselves through their fragility.
No you don't, you just feel bad and want to be absolved of it. You then do things of equal if not greater heinousness, showing you aren't learning anything from it at all.
Saying 'sorry' is empty if you're just doing it as lip service, like when five year olds are browbeaten into it.and I was saying you can’t talk about sin because you’re altering the very thing God have you to use as a vessel for your soul.
I am committing significantly less sin than you are, if you wish to make this into a contest. Your path is beyond sacrilegious at this point, an insult to the brand name, while I at least don't tarnish it beyond having some issues with the rhetoric itself.
I personally find a conscientious objector to be less of a threat towards any faith when compared to someone following it incorrectly.God said you are a guy, a girl, or a hermaphrodite. You don’t get to choose which you want to be.
God's also the one who's bestowed this gender confusion and the choice of what to do about it within a setting of his own design.
He is to blame for my actions.That’s a major sin.
You can argue that my path is sinful, but it's at least self-contained and misguided plainly. Your sin spreads onto others like a disease, like a wildfire, and it's far more misguided as a misbranded label than my choosing to not ascribe to the title at all.
You're effectively a sham, a charlatan, and the only one it's fooling is you.Being mean to people is not as bad, in my opinion,
There's significantly more passages against your behaviors than mine, and 'being mean to people' is a hell of an understatement when it comes to your life of sin and debauchery, even when it comes to your boasts.
The issue here is that this isn't over your opinion, but rather God's.but God says all sins are equally bad and my sins here are in the past. Yours will be forever.
I mean technically I haven't even undergone HRT yet, so I haven't aimed to 'change my form', meaning these are sins of the future at worst.
Your sins will be with you forever, regardless of if you play ignorant towards them or not, as you have not truly asked to be absolved of it, but rather for a resolution so that you can drop feeling like shit over your own misdeeds.
You use forgiveness as a bandage, when really forgiveness is about your intent. God will know if you truly are or aren't sorry, and repeated misdeeds only further how sorry you really aren't.
When you ask for forgiveness, you're supposed to then stop doing the sinful deeds. When it comes to matters of God, I am more of an accurate and pious worshipper as an atheist than you are as a card carrying follower, and that should be concerning to you.
When you're at the pearly gates, where Saint Peter will read you your sins before casting you to the coals, I expect that reading to take hours if not days (that is assuming that it's that model and not the more accurate one over Earth being converted into the second Eden after The Rapture, when all are brought back to life to answer for their actions with only 144,000 making it to Heaven at all as military generals for the ground troops versus Satan).The manipulativeness and sadism part is not unfamiliar around here, but I am more intrigued by her need to rationalize her actions using religion and copes like "I was allowed to cheat", it's like she wants to be evil and do as she wishes freely, but her self-image and psyche are so fragile that she cannot just go on about being evil without justifying and denying everything and say "yeah I am doing these things and I am evil, so what?". She has to convince herself she is a good person and what she did was right, because she cannot live with the reality of what she is as a person, she has no freedom to be who she wants to be because she is not strong enough to deal with the shame and guilt.
This makes me think that she is not naturally manipulative or cruel, but is acting out of trauma and past hurts in an attempt to deny to herself how weak and powerless she is, almost like in that movie with the lesbian prostitute who kills her clients because she was molested as a child by her stepfather or something.
This in contrast with someone like Ted Bundy for example, who had a good loving home, but still went out to hurt people for the pleasure of it. CS does all these because she knows how weak and vulnerable she is, and the moments of control over others feelings helps her deny that she is an easy target for a time being.
It's an interesting mixture of weakness / powerlessness and fragility. Let us know when you lose it and your murder spree starts CS.
Hmmm... very astute. You’re so smart. This is totally me. It hits on my main issue with myself. I’m wondering if I’m actually evil, or if I just want to be so I feel strong. I know that being raped isn’t what turned me evil because I used to be evil or at least sad, unconnected, and felt trapped.
I would say it's a mix of entitlement from being spoiled, combined with facing the real world where you need social skills and charm to control people to make them give you what you want, then hatred and anger over them not treating you as special because you lack those social skills and conventional attractiveness (white skin, symmetric face etc), wanting to punish them for not loving you and doing what you want like you feel you deserve.
I’m not sure if my other evil stuff was there from birth or after the rape. In essence, I’m not sure who I am. It’s like there’s two sides on me.
I think you change based on how you feel. When you feel hurt and like people are not giving you want, the world is not treating you the way you want, for ex when guys use you and throw you away because they think you are too annoying to be around, you become murderous and evil, spiral into drugs and sadistic fantasies, spiral
When you feel appreciated and loved, you become nice and act like a Saint, because now you can play the role of a perfect and good person, and someone is around to feed that fantasy
I would classify this as BPD tendencies as you have a very intense need to be loved and appreciated, and you literally turn into a demon when you don't get this, or angel when you get it.
Almost perfectly represented by the type of life I could have with either Trypt or Chapo. Peaceful and charitable, or evil and murderous. I really don’t know which one I was born similar to, but I know I choose good and God now, and Trypt.
At this point I would go with God, as Tryp did not choose you (he chose Blanc), and Chapo sees you as a mistress. You could become a nun.
So wrong man. I’m nice 99% of the time. I’m mean when it comes to guys and I use and leave them. I’ve never had a guy I couldn’t have my way with, other than C4. They don’t ditch me, I ditch them. Get that through your head. I have always been handed stuff because I’m attractive and guys love me. They do like my body and my potential money mostly, but I usually use them for sex and whatever they have too. Trypt didn’t choose me, but I’m not mad. I honestly gave up on him a long time ago, but he convinced me that it would be okay to wait for him because it’s possible he might be willing to be exclusive one day, but it was a lie. He just didn’t want me to be with Chapo, I guess. Chapo wants to marry me. For my cash, but still. Not a mistress.
Hey, one of my options do include becoming a nun, but I think I rather just start a charity and travel around helping people. I hope he didn’t actually choose Blanc though. I might not be great, but she doesn’t treat him right. I don’t care too much. I just hope he finds a better chick.