Disrespectful people. Disrespectful everything. How is this supposed to be good for anyone or anything. Toxic. I try my hardest to get along with people and get spit on the fucking face. It's actually quite frustrating. I guess I am doomed to be alone for the rest of my life.
I've always been a social outcast and if this site has taught me anything. i'll be a social outcast among the social outcasts. that's how much of a social outcast I am.
Sucks to be me. I've been bullied my whole life. Everyone just used me and made jokes of me. Nobody would respect me or treat me well no matter how hard I tried.
I'm diagnosed with several conditions I won't get into them because there very personal. I have told one or two but no more.
The fact that I used to have everything a year ago now nothing at my young tender age goes to show i will never make anything of myself. I will always be the laughing stock of my family and my community. I have no friends to confine with, but that could be partially due to circumstances considering i am semi hospitalised kinda but not kinda. I am so sick and tired of my life. I am so sick and tired of being pushed around people laughing at me not taking me seriously. Physically abusing me, psychologically abusing me. I'm just one big joke and people find it funny. Yeah i've had sex blah blah blah. Sex doesn't solve anything. If anything it has made my experience in life worse.
But I am so consumed with vicious hatred and self pity for myself. I have been abused towards breaking point. It's hard to live when your whole life your just fucking beaten down by everything. I honestly fucking hate myself and the world right now.
This might turn into a diary about my psychological introspective into my mind and circumstances.
