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Seeker of Challenges: The Monologue of a Sensory Junkie


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AttorneyWinner:
OMG!
I’m watching this Korean show called it’s okay to not be okay
It’s making me like Korean chicks
The chick is super cool
It’s in Korean, so I can’t watch too many episodes at once because the baby is always in front of the TV, but...
Freaking chick is really attractive and evil, but also is gay.
Straight, but in love with a caregiver guy.
She’s rich, obviously.
The thing I like best was when she said that there are some things that shouldn’t be separate and that’s why being obsessed with someone is noble and beautiful.
Such a cope, but I just love Korean shows because they are so crazy.
They make me feel sane.
Okay, another thing I wanted to share today was..
My mom said my room smelled
like
alcohol
And asked if I spilled sole
some*
I said no, because I didn’t and then said alcohol seems like a good idea and said I shouod
order some
She said alcohol is great and so I ordered some
It’s really cool how life works in my favor sometimes
Another thing is...
I told
my parents I was thinking about taking a week to party in Vegas
And they said that was interesting because they already planned a Vegas trip for valentines day
They’re willing to watch the baby for a week, so I can really just be myself and have fun.
It’s not only a miracle in and of itself, but it also means I’ll be home alone for a few days.
Which is always amazing.
Great minds think alike.
The issue I am
having though
Is that I’m not sure which hotel I should get
I know I want a suit, but...
I don’t know which hotel and I spent all day trying to see which one I wanted.
I still haven’t decided
I know I want a separate shower and bath tub, but I don’t know which hotel would be best.
The Rio has the most space and better room, but it’s off the strip
The flamingo has everything, but it’s a cheap place and has terrible decor
I think that might be okay because I’ll be high AF
The baby will be 1, so I can smoke weed
I’ll be doing that so the colors may be interesting.
I don’t know if I should do that or get a nice hotel with a typical hotel look.
I also was looking into the cabana room at a hotel because it has an indoor space and an outdoor space and an outdoor space and smoking weed in hotels in Vegas is technically illegal, so this would be a great workaround.
But I’m not one to follow laws, so I’d just have a vape pen with me forever, so it really wouldn’t matter.
I just like the space.
Anyway, I have a hard time deciding because I’m very open, so any of the options would be fine. I just don’t want to choose the wrong thing.
Now I’m watching an English dubbed Korean show called sweet home. It’s not as great as the one that’s in Korean, but it’s okay. Not really. I’m annoyed by its too slow.
It’s also in English so it annoys me a bit.
Korean is so much better.
Okay, back to thought number two.
I got alcohol delivered in plain sight, so everyone knows I’m drunk. It’s freeing.
I want to dance, I feel so free.
Also, the plane ticket, back to thought three, was only $150.
The hotel will be less than a grand
Feeling COVID is a blessing.
Freaking*
Anyway... I feel like I need another drink.
I promise I won’t be as psycho today.
Korean stuff chills me.

AlmightyJim:
yo tryp
look here quick
i just hit a lick
i will PM

AttorneyWinner:
Please do
I’m busy here
Anyway, I feel like before I was rudely interrupted by others, I was talking to myself about something important...

AlmightyJim:
check PM when you come back faggot, and if you wanna stop being a pussy and get in, let me know, we can 50/50

AttorneyWinner:
Oh, I remember, Korean stuff makes me realize that I can do whatever I want and not care about the future because I’m always going to be okay because I can handle anything.
I’m like not even close to God, but since I have God on my side, I will literally always be able to get through anything and still be fake happy on the other side :)
I’m also a good actress, I guess.
People, in real life, can see that I’m unhappy because I have a very telling face, but if they don’t see me in person, they think I’m happy because how could I not be? I’m literally an attorney :)
Koreans leave me speechless.
No idea why. I’m sure they don’t have much to offer.
That’s my next trip after Vegas though.
Man, it’s crazy my parents understand that I want to ditch the baby to party.
They’re great sometimes
I think I’m over trying to be suicidal with alcohol.
I’m looking forward to getting weed back.
Literally have 21 days left.
I’ll be back to normal
Just chilling and not being gay at all
It’s going to be amazing.
No boyfriend for guys to fight with just to get to me, what a Novell concept
I’ve never been single in Vegas before
I know there aren’t many people there because of the pandemic, but I’m shameless, I’ll have my fun no matter what.

Really:
I don’t even like people who are afraid to live, so I’m sure there will be people on my level there
I feel like this isn’t spamming because I’m talking to myself.
It’s not fair
Anyway, I still have logistics to work out, but I’m finally excited about the future

AlmightyJim:
blanc sup baby
come to daddy
let me buy your fenty sets
i just hit a lick

Really:
I’m not saying suicidal thoughts are gone, but I am saying I will have my free time in Vegas
I’ll just have to make a drink really quickly. Brb.
My headphones died
I have no music
I’m going to buy new ones
I don’t know why God thinks I’m so strong
It’s such a lie
I messed my life up, man.
I always do.
I think I get a kick out of being miserable
But I honestly and not sure it it’s exciting, enjoyable, or just makes me feel like I don’t need anyone or anything.
Not sure if it’s freeing or it’s a trap I’ve set for myself.
Wanting and longing, but then denying myself what I want.
Seems sadistic
Maybe I just love to hate myself.
Or, maybe I’m really just bored with life
Either way, Vegas will free me completely.
I’m actually really excited.
For the weed
Freaking weed
Weed man
God, I can’t wait!!!
It’s been way too long man
I don’t think I will need anything else once I smoke again.
It’s like I’ll be complete again when I have weed
My brain will turn off and I will finally not care about anything again
Just try and enjoy my high while it lasts
I wish I were a terrible mom instead of a bad one.
Then I’d be able to quit breast feeding and just smoke weed all of the time
I have frozen milk in the freezer
I could do it like nothing, but...

Irrelevantdontread:
I don’t know, I was going to write something, but I forgot. The baby ruined my thought process
I’m so ruined man
Korean shows are so gay in English
This Korean dude is cutting his hair!!! :( no!!!!!!
I rather die
Too bad it’s prerecorded
Apparently what you grab when you turn one is indicative of who you are and what you’re supposed to do for a living
Korean chicks are so cute
They even speak Korean in an adorable way
My brain has betrayed me
Every single time I feel myself getting crazy, I just do my thing and kill it. Tricking my brain isn’t that hard
But... my stupid brain doesn’t know how to listen anymore.
It just does its thing and it makes me mad
I wish they would go back to forbidding women from learning
That would allow me to focus on anything other than my brain
But no... stupid chicks wanted rights
All they had to do was chill
Just take care of babies and clean and cook
Not hard at all
That’s a reason only we can have kids. It’s because that’s literally our calling.
Repopulated the earth every now and then
Let the dudes do the hard work
Why would you want to work?
Feminists make me want to murder all women.
Laziness used to be okay for chicks. Now we have to be successful because guys realize they can have like ten of us and still be married because no one wants to cook for the dude. They rather just be used and pretend they’re enjoying themselves.
Housewives are so lucky
Being stupid is lucky to w
Too

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Challenge Seeker said:
Irrelevantdontread:
I swear on my own life, hopefully I’ll fail, that I will mess my brain up so much with whatever I can that I’ll be stupid enough to make guys want to take care of me.
I’ll be dumb blonde status, but better looking
I will never think again
I’m going to start the guys are better movement
Shut up and cook some dinner movement
Show some skin and take care of his babies movement
You don’t need to think, you can cook movement
Take comfort in the fact that you’ll raise the next president movement
Let your husband be depressed and demanded all day and just watch tv and clean all day
That’s a movement too
Smoke you’re weed and cook and clean you baby maker, movement
Equal pay is for insignificant barren women, movement
Have some babies and trap a rich dude movement
He’ll be working so much you can have a side piece movement
You’re too smart to want a job, movement. Lesbians shut up, movement
Okay, I’m finished.
Tomorrow, I’m going to eat everything I can
I really just need to quit driving, but I need weed to do that, so I’m kind of stuck
I think my goal for Vegas will be streaking
Just running naked without getting caught.
My body is nice again, so it will be fun.
Maybe find a group of cute dudes to do it with
Mainly I want to reject most of them and then choose the best two
Just try and be as crazy as possible so I’m normal for six years until I get rich
I think I’ll make new business cards for the occasion.
I need to find dudes who don’t have diseases, so obviously they have to be nerdy, scared and difficult to convince
I don’t want to do work, so I’m hoping they will just take advantage
I’ll probably be too drunk to enjoy it, but I’ll also probably be happy I don’t have to do work
I forgot how weed feels, so the first day I’ll just enjoy and remember
I guess I just feel like being touched
Used
Not sure why I like guys who throw me away.
Jk
I know why
They have to be strong to cut ties with my amazing body. I got skinny, so I’m back to being sexy. If guys can resist my body now, they’re stronger than me
That makes them a Challenge
Something to overcome or beat
I can’t wait to play with guys again
Makes me love myself more for some reason
When I make the rules and set the tone, it just makes me feel sexy.
Public sex in Vegas will be easy and more exciting because people will want to watch
I think that will be the first goal I have
Hey someone to watch
Second is find several dudes to partake
Third will be find one dude to take care of me while I freak out a bit
Fourth will be get that dude hooked and the final one would be get that dude to move to California. Aka, get him addicted to the point where he will never leave
Four goals, six nights
I hope there are enough attractive people there
Korean dude with snake bites
Dizzy making
Hands are shaking
Boring English faking
Guns not a blazing
Life is not amazing
Faggot feelings raising
Kill them with a phasing
Out of thoughts that are annoyingly hazing
No one knows how much I’d like a to partake in a blazing of my brain cells that are eating
Erasing themselves from my terrible
Mind that is going to make my head explode and start defacing
The beautiful people who try to get me off of my self destructive path that I’ve been placing in front of me
Since the day that my mind started racing
Into the darkness that I’ve been bracing
Myself for since before I was eighteen
When I couldn’t even tell you who was aching for me even before I was chasing these guys that only want to see me taking them into myself for their own
Making of themselves so they won’t have to face the reality that has them so fake and
Determined to show the whole world just how shaken they can make girls who face them and try to tell them how sad their fate is because they are so faithless and they prey to Gods who hate them and want to see just how low it will take them
I don’t know why I’m doing this but it’s very annoying and I want to kill myself right now because I’m annoying myself
Seriously, I feel like I was in a trance where I was someone else’s gay self where they just talk to themselves until they start wanting to die
I’m honestly hoping I can burry this deep inside of this weird rant hour of mine
Maybe I’m just
Annoying myself a lot
I’ve been listening to a lot of rap lately
Because it make me feel strong
It’s a nice lie to buy into
It is also a waste of time because I know myself and I’m anything but strong
That’s why I’m here talking to myself
I’m looking for answers inside of myself that don’t exist there because for some reason I always think I have
The answer to my problems, even though if I did I wouldn’t have any problems
It’s kind of like I’m literally insane and trying to cope by asking myself for advice because I know I’ll never believe I’m crazy, so my advice will be doable because it won’t involve checking myself into a crazy hospital
Anyway, I just annoy myself a lot and I would much rather be high because I wouldn’t have the energy to be weird
I’d just be chillin
Sometimes drugs are necessary
But honestly, I’m starting to feel more free because I have a vacay coming up
Vegas is like almost my place because it’s almost completely free.
The people it attracts probably care about freedom somewhat, maybe especially during the pandemic, so I uhhh meet some super cool people
Or I’ll self destruct, or continue to, and just eat a bunch of room service and smoke a bunch of weed and get back to how I used to be
Happy and healthy and stoner brained
This show just got interesting
Some gay action seems to be next
Dudes are really close man
Why can I scroll back so far?
I feel like there was like ten minutes where I was talking about stuff that wasn’t annoyingly gay
But somehow I can go back to a time when I wasn’t even this name
It’s weird
I heard
A sound
And I was like
Is it an earthquake
So I can die already?
It was a plane
One day though...
I’m sure global warming isn’t the only issue
Fracking is a thing too
Also, there are fault lines everywhere
The world will end at some point
If I were God, I’d make that be once I’m rich and have prepared for it :)
I’d say now, but then it will be more difficult to survive
I’d have to be more attractive than I am to make some dude be willing to take care of me
So gross how money truly rules the world
I’m not complaining, I’m just saying...

Humanshavefailed:
Koreans know what’s up
This show made me realize I’ma liar
When someone promises someone
something
And it’s nearly impossible to keep
It almost always turns into a lie
I think I’m bored
Okay, I think I’ve done my job here
I believe I have done my due diligence and killed every hope I had in life
Now I’m ready to do my fun stuff
I’m pretty excited man
I’m going to rage for a week
Let stuff happen, see what real life can bring
And not worry about anything
All is well when fantasies come to life
Just have to wait 22 days
I wonder if Conner would go to Vegas with me
I think I wrote that wrong.
He’s probably busy with work
Plus, I don’t really like him
He’sa fallback dude
Consolation prize
Very attractive, but just not what I’m looking for
I’ll be back, I have to go apologize to him for ignoring him
I might just have to dip into my ex pool since they feel compelled to protect me from others and save me for themselves
Just the kind of energy I need in Vegas to save me from myself
Just the right amount of detachment to ignore them when they’re being overprotective
Oh, I forgot I have a Korean friend
Hmmm 🤔
Brb again
I felt like I should have apologized to my Korean friend for not texting him back, but I also feel like I’m just trying to locate someone who could keep me chill
It seems though, that Koreans are a bit sensitive, so he might hate me
Also chill with that though
I’m In too lazy to text back, so I can’t expect people to wait on me without any animosity
I just need a crutch of a dude to have just in case, who also knows how to party, so I don’t have to ditch him
But, curiosity brings me to the point where I want to see how this Connor dude will respond to me texting him after ignoring him for a few days. Maybe it’s only been one though
Either way, I wonder how much he likes me
I wonder if he will freak out at all
Exciting
I guess I could go with my college floor mates
That might just be the best idea ever. I’ll be back in a bit, must convince a dozen people to go party like crazy during COVID.

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Challenge Seeker said:
Humanshavefailed:
My phone is dying :(
Okay, so to see how I am, I’ll narrate my interactions with my floor mates
So I asked them if they think I’d get COVID if I go to Vegas at the end of February.
They’re highly educated and one is married, so I won’t hear back until tomorrow because it’s late, but I’ll keep you people updated.
I just saw a bug
Makes me want to move very soon/fast.
I hate bugs
Cardi B is pretty great.
She has some weirdly sad songs that make her seem so soft, but then she pretends to be so tough.
It’s relatable, but really weird because I don’t get myself either and I do weird stuff like that too.
My headphones aren’t charging, so I need new ones and I’m going to buy them now because I love music and it makes me sad when I don’t have a way to listen to music and watch tv at the same time. I get bored

Musicislife:
Wires negate this issue
Old school for life
I forgot to check when they are coming.
It was Wednesday, but I cancelled it and now they will be here by Monday
I was going to make a joke about shipping, but my brain isn’t working
Too sad about my headphones not working.
Getting weird PTSD from music in this show
Time
to
Switch shows
Yo, I got a year subscription to door dash today
My commitment to food is beyond my own comprehension
It’s like my commitment to ruining my own life or something
It will never end.
Every year it will be worth it until I stop eating
That might actually be a phase I go through because I’ve been through it in the past
I apparently don’t need to stop because I’ve been very great at just eating ice cream :)
But also I almost always feel sick nowadays
Something about hating yourself really makes you want to stop with the happiness
Lucifer is my show, but I will not freak out like last time. I’ll just enjoy it
I am no longer invested in life
Just into analyzing how people think other people work
Also, attractive people are easy to watch
Gross, LA is so flat
My roommate in high school asked me what I will be doing in Vegas.
Like she doesn’t know, ha ha ha.
I am impressed she’s awake though. She is the less crazy roommate of mine.
Pharmacist
I think she wants to party too
Not sure why my phone didn’t tell me when I got a text
Kind of annoying
The catch phrase, “boring, boring, boring, boring!”
Is it weird that I know what is about to happen next, but it still gives me anxiety?
It’s even fake, but I feel like this part of the show makes me feel like no one wins, which makes me feel like everyone loses?
I am so weird. I can’t even handle normal tv shows.
I’m sure is not because this dude is black
Yeah, it’s not, luckily
Thought I was worse than I actually am
A lack of control feeling amazing is very relatable
Oh God, this is why I hate watching Lucifer. I can relate to his wanting no control.
It’s exciting. That’s what makes life worth living. Not being able to control people is amazing. Who knows what will happen?
Makes Vegas more exciting.
Makes this place more exciting.
Will people be able to make people in my real life hate me? Or will they just be annoying to no avail?
Will I be rich on my own, or will I have to find someone to use?
Will I stay in CA? Or will I move so I can be rich?
Who knows?
So exciting
LA is so flat it literally makes me want to vomit every time they pan over the city
I hate flat places
Talk about a trap
Not sure why murder bores me now
I think it’s the fact that I’ve literally seen this show at least five times
Malfeasant reprobate
Diluting the Lucifer brand
Kills me man
Man, where do I find attractive British dudes?
A spanking...
Could be useful
It’s hard to watch shows that you know exactly how they end and go
Dang, this chick gets it. I’ve cream is happiness
Ice
God it weird that right now, all I want is a kiss from anyone, yet when I met with that Connor guy, he kissed me and I was weirded out.
I guess I have true gay moments sometimes
Now, I guess I need a connection really quickly.
Just have to wait until morning
Sexy strength
Grossly cute reunion
Why would I mess with perfection?
Ha ha ha, a river in Africa is denile
Denial
Hilarious
I’m totally at passing out time
I need to make sure my dreams are happy.
I’ll be back. I have to google happy stuff

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Did you see TPG's pms with alice on discord? That was gold.

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Did you see TPG's pms with alice on discord? That was gold.

How is that even related? 

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I thought this was amazing. It’s like art. Thanks for memorializing it. 

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Cs is retarded dumb arrogant and exhibits disgusting behaviour.

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Cs is retarded dumb arrogant and exhibits disgusting behaviour.

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Don’t be jealous. Enjoy your life and stop hating on mine. Thanks :)

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Don’t be jealous. Enjoy your life and stop hating on mine. Thanks :)

I am not jealous of a chronic boozer and child abuser. 

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