So far I've had mixed results with this game, and I don't really think it's okay to gamble money away so, I really want to improve, and improve my attitude towards it as well.
It's had ups and downs, but I'm in the red since two years ago when I started playing for fun. It's not ideal though, being in the red annoys me.
An overview of where I'm at.
Random small stakes tournaments play. This is where I am actually in the green, but playing feels really slow.
Cash games: in the green on 0.01/0.02 and 0.02/0.05. red above.
Zoom/fast fold/blitz in the red.
Clearly, I'm doing something right to be in the green on the really easy stakes, and something wrong above.
1) Biggest mistake so far though, is playing while drunk at higher stakes just to throw money away gambling. This is my largest leak that I need to fix.
I've learnt stuff about preflop ranges, and how to interpret people's post-flop betting percents etc. But other than this and some "feel" for the game I got over many played hands, I can't say I know that much.
This leads to the second leak:
2) not studying enough. I read like a poker book that had some really rudimentary stuff, a quarter of a more advanced one and another quarter if another one. This allows me to think about whether what I was doing was right or not, but doesn't really help me improve that much. Gotta fix this by stopping the lazyness and reading BOOKS like a nerd.
3) tilt. Sometimes it's just not my day and I should just call playing it off then splash money around, this is also a big leak
4) getting in some autistic subconscious mindset of "I need to crush this person" and playing bad because of it. My goal should never be to crush anyone in this game, but rather to earn as much as possible for it.
Number 1 is fixed by no alcohol. Number 2 by reading. Number 3 by restraint. Number 4 by self-control.
Gonna keep this thread updated daily probably, or just randomly stop. I actually kinda wanna get better here.
Inb4 hurt it's not red it's black or other such keks