Stop fucking our members, Tryp.
Stop being selfish blanc, you have been using him for chat emotional support and made him beg for pussy in chat for years, let him hit it just once, or you might end up killing yourself cuz there will be nobody to listen when u are talking about how ur traumatized cuz starbucks is closed
Damn right.
Well, to be fair, the first thing that I texted him after I left his place was that there were so many attractive dudes there and that I was sad that I didn’t get dressed up, but that there weren’t many attractive girls there, so it was okay. It was a random thought that wasn’t meant to be shared at all, but I forgot that I don’t think before I write stuff and I wanted to talk to him, but didn’t want it to seem weird, so I wrote that because it’s not needy and it was my first thought because that’s my way of trying not to get hurt. I told him I loved him and I do, so when I left, I felt vulnerable and scared that it wouldn’t work out. I’m just anxious always and that makes me so stupid stuff.
Also, right before this, I told Blanc I didn’t want her sloppy seconds because I dislike her so much that she makes me not like him and said I was giving up on him. That was evil to say Ashas I didn’t realize it until after because sloppy seconds is the opposite of what he is. He’s the nicest guy in the world. He decided to meet me, the sloppy like fifths, and he didn’t see what you people saw, he judged for himself and thought I was a good person because I am. He wasn’t going to meet me because he felt wired about it, but we met it was amazing. We were going to meet several times before, but we didn’t because of some stubbornness issues and communication issues. Imagine someone saying they love you and then watching them say something like that about you, when you never even had sex with the other chick. I pretty much said my hatred for her is stronger than my love for him. It was the worst thing I’ve ever said/wrote. Again, I was just jealous of Blanc because of their history together and my fear of them being together made me react like this. I ditch when I’m scared of being hurt. After this, I said I was just going to forget about guys and work on myself because I do want to be someone Trypt actually wants and not someone who writes things without thinking about the consequences. There was a possibility of us being a thing when I was going to leave the first time, but we never discussed it this time, and I texted two guys when the president argument happened and it made him not like me as much, so I felt too insecure to discuss it when I left this time. Hence the anxiety and fear that led to me going back to my old ways of coping with uncertainty, especially when it involves guys. I love Trypt so it got bad really fast. I’m a disaster and I deserve this torture as my punishment, so I think this was a great way to succinctly say that’s what happens when you mess up.
This all reminds me of the movie black swan
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