- No matter what I do I can't stop being biased even in my own religion there are many things that are gaps that I recognize but yet when there's pork in front of me I cannot bring myself to eat it because that is how my parents raised me no matter what I do I can't stop being biased though I do believe that I have a relationship with some sort of spiritual being due to my own life experiences and I do admit that I am not entirely sure of the truth of my own religion I cannot help but the vote myself fully to it as this is the way that I am used to and this is what makes me happy no matter what I do I can't stop being biased I seem to always be biased and arguments to some degree for myself I seem to always see things from perspective if I'm hungry or tired or in a good mood and this disgusts me about myself because my goal is to be as not biased as possible because I believe that the further away from bias you are the closer you are to reality and the closer you are to reality the more self-benefit it is for you to fully understand your surroundings to the greatest degree but yet I can't bring myself to stop being biased it's like a drug I lie to myself and no I'm not talking about the BR incident but there are other incidents where I know that I was biased yet I find myself being back and forth on them conflicted almost not quite like a devil on my shoulder and an angel on my shoulder but like a caveman ape that only responds to its own bonobo instincts going up against a computer that tries to realize the truth of things but yet even in the sense of a computer it is biased sometimes I try to find patterns and things in which there are no patterns I look at a random splatter on the wall and my brain rearranges it into a perfect little square and for a moment it almost looks like that square and I feel like my perception in many ways can be the same I have a lot of self-hatred for myself because I hold a gain of logic and I hold non bias to be the most important part of an individual on a philosophical level and on a level of self-benefit when it comes to material game yet I cannot aspire to be this because I think as I am nothing but an animal I will never be able to be this I hope that one day I can reach at least a little bit more of an ability to not be so biased about everything people in real life who know me try to say oh your logical oh look at the nuance and things and I think to myself I take that insult or that criticism as a compliment but then when I see myself I see that they are wrong when I see myself I see that I am a illogical being and that it is highly likely like every other human being on this planet I always will be illogical. and this is depressing to me because it's in a way admitting that you are a blind person and that though it is possible that your site might improve you will never be able to fully see
The labrat devours the scientist, if given the chance. As the rat is nothing but a tool to the scientist, the rat may still consume his dead flesh.
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